Small Group Sessions September 20, 1998

I HAVE A SIX YEAR OLD SON AND AM PREGNANT WITH A CHILD WHO WILL BE BORN IN JANUARY. IN TERMS OF “CHOOSING” AND EXISTENCE BEYOND THE EARTH OR WITH HER, HOW DO WE CONSIDER OUR CHILDREN? WILL THEY EACH MAKE THE CHOICE AS WE WILL? DO WE ASK THEM? HOW SHOULD WE PHRASE SUCH POTENTIALLY CONFUSING QUESTIONS?

If they are coming into earth at this time they are choosing already to be here. Your choice is to either anchor more fully into the earth plane or to remain partially in and partially out, which is less comfortable. You do not need to pose the question to the souls of these ones, they have already chosen, they are here. They wish to be here and participate in whatever form of transformation, rebuilding, restructuring, and recreating that they are here to do.

The choice is truly yours, and you get to choose whether you wish to fully embody your great soul and spirit, anchoring within the earth’s dimensional nature, or whether or not you don’t want to do so.

AS A CHILD I ALWAYS THOUGHT THERE WAS SOMETHING IMPORTANT THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DOING BUT I COULD NOT REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS. NOW I AM STARTING TO GET AN IDEA, BUT I AM SO FILLED WITH INTEREST IN SO MANY AREAS THAT I FEEL I WILL BECOME A JACK OF ALL TRADES AND A MASTER OF NONE. IN WHICH AREA SHOULD I FOCUS MY ATTENTION FOR THIS LIFETIME? I HAVE SO MANY DOUBTS AND FEELINGS OF GUILT BECAUSE OF MY LACK OF INTEREST IN CLEANING MY HOUSE OR OTHER THINGS THAT I KNOW I NEED TO BALANCE OUT. HOW DO I BALANCE IT ALL?

The energies that are opening now are very enticing to, in a sense, open new doors. If you do not close doors behind you and clear what has been there in the past then there will come a time when no more doors will open, and you will sit in this place that has great confusion, a mixture of the past, the present, and that which you wish to open in the future. What you wish to open cannot open until you have cleaned up. On an energetic emotional level and on a physical level it is important to release what no longer has any energy or use for you, both in consciousness and in the earth.

Simplify your life. Cleaning your house should be an effort. If you begin to restructure yourself from the base of your being all the way into your life, you will find that there is a simplification, restructuring, and cleaning out. Everything begins to find a place, and you find that opening new doors then has a foundation. Certain of those doors will have greater energy than others. It is not to feel as if you are limiting yourself. That is part of why there is a resistance, because you are coming out of limitation. To really open based in a foundation is helpful for you. That foundation needs to simplify.

RECENTLY MY MOM PASSED AWAY. THE LAWYER INVOLVED IN HELPING ME TO DEAL WITH HER POSSESSIONS, I THINK IS CROOKED. HE SAYS THAT THE MAN WHO BOUGHT HER HOUSE OWNS HER POSSESSIONS THAT WERE SUPPOSED TO BE MOVED OUT. INSTEAD, THE NEW OWNER SEIZES THEM, AND I DON’T KNOW IF HE STILL HAS THEM OR HAS SOLD THEM. THE LAWYER TELLS ME THAT I HAVE LOST THEM FOREVER AND THAT THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO SINCE THIS IS LOUISIANA AND THAT WE HAVE WEIRD LAWS. I HAVE NOTHING OF EITHER PARENT, I AM SO DEPRESSED. WHAT CAN I DO? ALSO, IS THERE A WAY TO CONTACT MY MOM? I FEEL LIKE SHE WANTS NOTHING ELSE TO DO WITH ME.

What we would say is that this is a challenge in your growth, in your life. Yes, there has been wrong-doing in a sense, and they have taken advantage of you, but at the same time this is a great opportunity to do some deep healing and release work. It is an opportunity to allow yourself to release the past and what you have taken on from your parents in thoughts, thought patterns, and emotional patterning, some of which you are experiencing and playing out now. The wounded child within you that did not have an ability to stand true to yourself is now needing to be true to yourself.

Your mother has not left the astral plane. She has left the physical plane, but she is yet in the astral near the physical plane. She needs to move on from that relationship with you. She needs to finish her transition and not be in some form of domination in relationship with you as it has been in the past. You might seek some healing so that you might release many of these patterns, including the influence of your mother from the other side that is not to your benefit. If you seek to go to others for counsel, make sure that they understand that your desire is to bring certain things that you wish to have in your possession, but know that the domination pattern is what you are truly working to heal and to shift within you in this time.

CAN YOU EXPLAIN THE PHENOMENA WHICH I EXPERIENCE ON OCCASION WHERE I HEAR WHAT SOUNDS LIKE MORSE CODE, REPEATING VERY CLEARLY WITHIN MY HEAD. I HEAR IT SLIGHTLY WITH MY EARS, AND OFTEN IT IS VERY FAINT. I HAVE ALSO ACCESSED MUSIC THAT WAY. I CANNOT CONTROL THE VOLUME, WILL IT TO HAPPEN OR TO STOP, BUT I AM CURIOUS AS TO ITS MEANING.

Every person has a certain way of being structured and organized. There are certain antennae, if you wish to use the metaphor, to different frequency levels of consciousness. If the antennae are part of your make-up, then you can receive on those frequencies or those places. So you open to a certain level where there is communication through sound, music, codes, etc. Because you have not learned to dial your frequencies, you are not able to control what you receive, how long you receive it, or how to interpret it. You might wish to tune in to that frequency or antenna within your repertoire, and allow that you can ask for assistance to learn to interpret what you are receiving, learn to tune that antenna to different frequencies, and then begin to bring what you wish to bring through you. It may be certain kinds of music or information. That capacity is there.

You will need to ground better in your body. Open the root chakra and ask for the Earth Mother to assist you to have a stronger sense of your own connectedness. That assists the opening to the higher frequencies, otherwise the body does not know how to translate and it gets out of balance very easily.

RECENTLY, MY SPIRITUAL PROGRESS SEEMS TO HAVE ACCELERATED. MY WIFE AND I ARE CONSTANTLY ASKING OURSELVES IF WE SHOULD MOVE OUT OF THE BAY AREA. I KEEP ASKING MY INNER SELF FOR SPECIFIC GUIDANCE, BUT ONLY GET THE ANSWER TO TRUST. AM I BLOCKING INFORMATION THAT IS NEEDED TO MAKE SPIRITUAL PROGRESS AND PROTECT MY FAMILY FROM EARTH CHANGES?

Your own guidance is the greatest sense. It is helpful at times to go to places where there is great chi in the earth, energy and magnetism, and to listen to the earth directly. Ask how she is feeling, how she is doing, and where she intends to next move or shift. There are certain areas that are not first in the sequence that is happening in the earth at this time, but it is imperative to listen. Listen not only to guidance around you in spirit, but to the Earth Mother directly. It is more difficult in town to feel the electromagnetic fields directly. Go out of town to where there is more magnetism and chi, ask your questions, listen, and trust what you receive.

I HAVE ENTERED MENOPAUSE RATHER EARLY IN LIFE. I AM CONTEMPLATING TAKING HORMONE REPLACEMENT THERAPY, BUT AM CONCERNED ABOUT THE LONG-TERM EFFECT THIS MAY HAVE PHYSICALLY AS WELL AS SPIRITUALLY. I WOULD APPRECIATE YOUR THOUGHT ON THIS.

The synthetic hormone replacement therapy is less desirable, for the body does not recognize it and eventually will tend to rebel. The more natural progesterone and estrogen assistance, depending on specifically what you need, would perhaps be supportive to your body. It is important to be specific, however. There are certain tests that measure your hormone levels, and then you can specifically boost anything that is low, but with natural means. We do not recommend the synthetic hormone replacement because eventually the body will attempt to isolate and expel it in some form or way. Sometimes it precipitates the growth of tumors, cysts, or actual detoxification processes that are not comfortable and are debilitating at times. We highly suggest that you investigate your own specific needs in a natural course and it won’t interfere with anything.

I HAVE STARTED VENTURING OUT AND TRUSTING IN THE THINGS I’VE BECOME AWARE OF. I SEEM TO BE RUNNING INTO SOME OBSTACLES, THOUGH. I HAVE SOME IMMEDIATE FINANCIAL ISSUES THAT ARE CAUSING ME STRESS AT TIMES. I’M TRYING HARD TO FOCUS ON MY ATTITUDE AND GETTING MY BUSINESS IN ORDER SO THEY CAN BE ADDRESSED. IT WOULD BE NICE TO KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I’LL HAVE TO DEAL WITH THINGS THE WAY THEY ARE OR WHETHER SOME OPPORTUNITIES WILL BE REALIZED SOON.

We offer to you a visualization that you can do outside. Go outside to a place that is not encumbered with electromagnetic fields. No overhead wires, no airplanes going over, and no buried wires; someplace that is more natural. Stand in that place. Once you do this physically it will be set in your field so you can do it in your visualization and re-create it in your body, but you must do it in your body.

Open your body and its awareness of abundance, and how it is sourced in your field through the earth’s field to your field. Open this awareness and open it in your body, and anything that says differently you look at and you excise. Take it out and let it go. Give it to those energetic assistants who would recycle it for you and for the earth, and begin a process of opening the awareness that you once had when you were a child that you live in an abundant universe and you live in a body that actually knows how to create it. Recover this, it is your greatest gift. You will no longer suffer from this panic that you do not have enough or know how to make enough money. That is false. It is an illusion that has been placed in the feminine consciousness and it has never been the truth. The feminine is one with the source of the creative abundance of the earth. Recover it and let yourself create it.

I HAVE A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP ISSUE THAT DOESN’T SEEM TO GO AWAY. I FEEL VERY CLOSE TO A MAN AND WE HAD BEEN CLOSE FRIENDS AS WELL AS CO-WORKERS FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS. RECENTLY WE HAVE CHOSEN SEPARATE DIRECTIONS ALONG THE SAME PATH AND HE HAS MOVED AWAY TO PURSUE OTHER PERSONAL AND CAREER INTERESTS. I MISS HAVING HIM IN MY LIFE AT TIMES, BUT I FEEL I’VE RECONCILED ALL MY FEELINGS AND BELIEVE THINGS WILL WORK OUT FOR BOTH OF US. I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I GET PREOCCUPIED THINKING ABOUT HIM AT TIMES. ANY INSIGHTS WOULD BE APPRECIATED.

When you have a soul level connection you can separate in the physical sense, but the souls continue to have a communication link. So you may be thinking about him, but it is truly just a time when you are more aware of the soul link that is there. It may help you to just acknowledge the soul link and then move your focus to something else. There is a way on a soul level in which you still support one another in your evolution, and that connection is still present.

I HAVE A BROKER WHO JUST POPPED INTO MY LIFE A FEW MONTHS AGO. HE SEEMS TO BE SINCERE IN HIS DEALINGS WITH ME AND I WOULD LIKE AN OPPORTUNITY TO WORK WITH HIM SHOULD MY FINANCIAL SITUATION GREATLY IMPROVE AND I FINALLY GET BACK TO A POINT WHERE I CAN HAVE SOME MONEY TO INVEST. I HAVE A FRIEND WHO WOULD LIKE TO WORK WITH ME AND PUT THE MONEY TO GOOD USE, SHOULD WE BECOME SUCCESSFUL IN OUR INVESTMENTS. SHOULD I PURSUE THIS MORE?

Be cautious right now about investing. The man is trustworthy, but the investing opportunities are very wobbly at this time. Choose only those things that are sourced with the greatest sense of centered integrity. Investigate for yourself. Do not let someone else investigate, because you will sense whether or not there is an integrity at the core of what you wish to invest in. That is your key. Be cautious for now. It is not a good time to invest in places that may be disintegrating very soon.