Small Group Sessions September 1997

I SEE MANY PEOPLE WAKING UP AND IT IS EXCITING. WHEN I FIRST STARTED TO AWAKEN IN 1989 I WAS SHY TO SHARE AND SPEAK OUT, BUT NOW I AM MORE CONFIDENT. MY QUESTION IS ONE OF CONCERN FOR MY PARTNER. HE SEEMS TO BE FILLED WITH CONTEMPT FOR MY GROWTH. HE HAS MUCH ANGER AND HIS RESENTMENT AND SKEPTICISM SEEM TO GROW DAILY. HE ONCE SEEMED OPEN MINDED AND NOW HE SEEMS CLOSED. I MEDITATE DAILY AND ASK FOR THE NEXT STEPS FOR MYSELF. NOW I ASK FOR THE NEXT STEP FOR MY PARTNER BECAUSE IT IS PAINFUL TO WATCH HIS STRUGGLE AND I AM UNABLE TO COMMUNCATE ANYTHING AT THIS POINT. WHY DOES IT APPEAR THAT MY GROWTH IS ACCELERATING AND HIS GROWTH SEEMS TO BE IN RETROGRADE?

What we would say to you perhaps would apply to some others in the earth plane as well. When ones open to their own soul’s light the light begins to illuminate what is in the shadows of your own soul. As it gets brighter it also begins to illuminate shadows in others. That begins to manifest in behavior, particularly if ones are not willing to directly open to those places consciously and work with them as gifts. Then they begin to project them onto another.

Your partner is feeling the greater light and what is being illuminated are his own areas of unconscious anger that have not been healed and resolved from when he was young. There are wounds that were never attended to that are covered by the anger, and there is also that which he took on from his family system.

If you decide to continue to be with this one it is important for you not to take on the projections of this one’s illusionary patterns. They are not true for him and they are not true for you. Continue to clear yourself and be one of unconditional love, yet do not receive the projections. Say that it is not of your choosing to be the recipient of the projection. Ones need to learn with the strong love of strong people in their lives that their shadow, their darkness, can be lifted, transmuted, and healed, and that projections onto others is a way to articulate it but it is not a way to grow with it.

So stand firm with unconditional love and continue to clear and heal yourself and the places within you that rise up and are being illuminated. Realize that his experience of what he is creating for himself or for you is not of truth.

I WAS TOLD THAT IN A PAST LIFE I WAS A FOLLOWER OF A MEDICINE WOMAN AND HELD THE SAME GIFT THAT SHE POSSESSED. WITH SOME READING I’VE DONE AND A LITTLE RESEARCH I FELL THIS MAY BE TRUE. I WAS WONDERING IF YOU COULD HELP ME GATHER SOME DIRECTION. WHERE DO I BEGIN THIS JOURNEY AND HOW DO I BEGIN?

It is a combination of remembering, which you have begun to do with your reading and research, and acquiring the skills that will assist you in this time and this age to be of assistance with others. Those that were medicine men and women in the past carried the skills that were for healing in the cultures and in the times in which they lived. That is to be now translated for this time. There are many paths of healing. With you particularly it would be good for you to use your hands in some way. Pursue different forms of healing that might utilize your hands. Massage, Reiki, healing techniques that have hand placements upon the body, Shiatsu, Kofuto, or many of the asian training methods. Such things have different modalities and schools of training some of which you may be familiar with. But whatever you choose, seek to learn with someone of humility. There are many who have learned much of the technique but they have lost the heart within it. For you your heart is first and your hands are the vehicle for your heart. Hearts that teach need to feel that sense of love and humility and they know that the energy they pass on is of a universal source, and they are not standing in the way taking the credit as one who is a healer. You would not benefit from learning from one standing in such a place. That is our suggestion. If you have further questions please ask.

IN THE PAST SEVERAL MONTHS I HAVE HAD PERIODS OF BEING PULLED INTO WHAT FEELS LIKE A VERY DEEP SLEEP, ALTHOUGH I DON’T EXACTLY BECOME UNCONSCIOUS. SOME OF THESE EVENTS ARE MORE INTENSE THAN OTHERS, AND AT TIMES I AM BARELY ABLE TO MOVE. I HAVE BEEN AN ACTIVE CONSCIOUS CHANNEL FOR MANY YEARS AND HAVE BEEN CAREFUL TO AVOID “TRANCE” CHANNELING AS ONE NEVER KNOWS WHO MIGHT STEP IN. I’M GETTING THE SENSE THAT I AM SUPPOSED TO “LET GO” AND GIVE IN TO SOMETHING, YET I AM NOT ONE TO EASILY GIVE UP MY CONSCIOUSNESS. ARE THESE EPISODES ARE A FORM OF PSYCHIC EXHAUSTION? PERHAPS I AM TRYING TO DO TOO MUCH. ANY INPUT WILL BE HELPFUL.

What we see when we look to you is that your channeling has precipitated a time in your body where there is a need for a shift of frequency. When you go into these particular states it is rather like being put into a certain kind of conscious suspension. You are not to be a full trance channel, that is not what you are being prepared to do. But this period of conscious suspension is a way your body uses to shift the frequencies of the consciousness of matter of your body to a new level.

In so doing your experience of channeling, your experience of your embodiment, and your experience of who you are may begin to feel altered and then gradually more normal again. It is a process by which your soul is utilizing certain frequencies of energy that cannot be accessed when your mind is engaged. So you are utilizing this particular way, which is an old way you learned in Egypt, to go into a suspended state to access certain frequencies and bring them back into the body for the purpose of shifting the body’s frequencies. It is a restored memory activating now to assist you in this time.

Do not be afraid of it since you know at some level of your soul what you are doing. Be conscious of the altered state that it is beginning to precipitate in you, and that you may become more conscious of in your waking time.

WHY DO I FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR A RELATIONSHIP THAT IS (OR HAS) ENDED AND WANT TO HANG ON TO IT? I FEEL THAT THIS PERSON IS NICE ONE MINUTE AND THEN CHANGES TONE, EXPRESSION AND EVERYTHING AT THE DROP OF A HAT. IT KIND OF MAKES ME FEEL CRAZY BECAUSE WE WERE SO CLOSE FOR SO LONG AND IT’S FRIGHTENING.

When the energy begins to dissipate between two people and the souls begin to go in different directions there can still be areas of cording between two people who have been very close. It continues to feel as if you are tied together. It is helpful to acknowledge this and to consciously ask for assistance from your guides and those who serve you to begin to release any patterns that have resulted in that codependency or cording on an energetic level. That continues to hold your mind, your energy, and your focus with another person rather than returning or restoring it within yourself.

If you do this process of releasing on all levels you will gradually find that there is no energy of feeling entangled or pulled by this person whether or not they are happy or sad, or whether they are treating you well or badly. You will stand in a place of not being affected, and that is where you will grow to. In the mean time turn your focus around as much as you can, severing the cords gradually and gently with love and with gratitude for how you have learned with this one. Then look to your own patterns, those places within yourself where you need to clear patterns from childhood, from your own family systems, and those that you brought in with you that would need cleaning up or completion so your soul can manifest more freely and with more joy in this body and in this earth.

IS THERE LIFE AFTER DEATH AND WHAT IS IT LIKE?

Well, we exist, so we can confirm that there is life beyond what you know of in the physical body. We do not see death in the same way you do. From your side you see a release of the body and then you no longer see a physical body. What we see is a transition between a soul that has incorporated a body and moved its consciousness into matter or into a body in such a way to densify that consciousness and live through it or experience life through it. Then at a certain point when that is finished then the being releases the density and moves the consciousness into pure vibration that is beyond matter or beyond density or vibration of matter. The soul then continues on its journey, hopefully.

As they release out of the body many beings look back at the body, perhaps see people that they know and love. They do not feel sad about leaving because there is a great knowing that the love, the great encompassing love that is there with them is to bring them to greater peace, joy, healing, and reunion with friends and relatives.

Many beings leave and have very few regrets. It is as if they have completed what their soul came to do. If that is the case then they are greeted with a great amount of love. They are surrounded by love to such a degree that they begin to forget any pain that may have been in their life. They begin to look back at their life and realize where they had choices and then see how they made those choices and how they did. Sort of a self evaluation, there is no judgment. There’s no God that says “this is bad and this is good”. It is all done by the self, but with consciousness and without the veils that are within the forgetfulness that is present now. They also have guidance from those that join you to assist you in that time, and there is great amounts of unconditional love.

After that time ones are free to make choices. Some choose to continue to complete certain things with people that have been in the previous life, and so they open to assistance with God’s help or the angel’s help to make greater completions. Even this one speaking, your mother, has assisted people from the other side with people who are on this side in bodies, to make such completions at times. Other times they move on. They move into areas of learning, they may begin studies or adventures, or play. It is quite a lot like creating consciousness just as you do here, but at another level of consciousness.

The goal is to evolve to a point in time where one no longer feels as if you need to have a body to continue evolution, but that you might find your way through into pure service. You might become a guide for another in a body, you might be one who assists those in bodies. You might assist those who are coming from the other side, or you may just join you love to others to create fields of love to support others. You may want to learn, study, or teach and experiment, and join any one of many halls of learning or creativity, or you might fly back to God and be One.

So there are many choices on this (spirit) side.