Small Group Sessions October 18, 1998

SIXTEEN YEARS AGO THERE WAS A PROFOUND OPENING IN MY LIFE. I CHOSE TO TRUST SOMETHING CONNECTED WITH MY WRITING AND IT TOOK ME TO AN INDESCRIBABLE NEW WORLD OF THINKING, LOVING, CREATING AND EXPERIENCING. AFTER THIS I WAS HURT BY MY FAMILY AND I FELL INTO A VERY DARK PLACE WITH A LOT OF FEAR. I HAVE HEALED SOME OF THE WOUND BUT WOULD LIKE TO UNDERSTAND IT BETTER AND HEAL IT MORE FULLY, ESPECIALLY THE WOUND FROM MY MOTHER IN PARTICULAR. I REMAIN STUCK. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?

When you feel drawn to cocoon or go within, there is a reason. Usually the reason is that your soul is coalescing and bringing home to center various facets or parts of your life. You are then not wishing to give out energy or, in your words activity or even talking with friends or family. You are not wishing to give that out because something else more important is happening in terms of the soul energy. It’s rather like when someone is going to give birth and they spend the last few weeks feeling as if they want to create that special place into which the child will be born. Once the child is born they don’t want to leave. They just want to be present in that place with the child until there is a sense of wholeness and fullness, and that place of inner nurturing feels as if it has been completely nurturing of what it has been desiring to birth or bring forward.

So trust it is what we are saying. You could call it a phase, but it is more like a soul developmental phase that brings you into a more cocooned time. Look at what you wish to do in that inner space, your home or womb space. What is it that you feel like doing there? Let that take your energy, focus, and attention, even if it feels as if you are not doing anything. Being is using that energy to create something that will come to birth.

OVER THE PAST FEW MONTHS I HAVE HAD TROUBLE BREATHING. IT FEELS LIKE AN ENERGETIC CONSTRICTION AROUND MY CHEST. THIS HAPPENS WHENEVER I START FEELING STRESSED. WHY AM I CREATING THIS PATTERN?

Stress is built upon fear. Fear constricts, and since fear is an illusion and not the truth of your being, your being continues to push out and there is a conflict. You are pushing in or constricting, and your soul and your being is pushing out and expanding. It is asking you to trust, asking you to relax, asking you to know the truth of who you are rather than a false premise which gives way to fear.

In this time, whenever you feel stress or constricting and you cannot breathe, it is an opportunity to step aside and look the fear in the face and name it the illusion, the falsehood, the lie that it is. Step out of the place where the stress is being created and the fear is being allowed to control, and open to love, to wholeness, to fullness, to the presence of awareness and the flow of life. The lungs are the life force. How much life do you wish to encompass in your life, and where is it that you are feeling constricted in your life. If you feel constricted in a place, then what is it that is your choice that will bring it back into life and into alignment with your true self. You may need to make a choice to do something about that.

I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON PROSPERITY ISSUES. I AM WONDERING IF YOU COLD GIVE ME SOME SPECIFIC EXAMPLES OF HOW I MIGHT BE BLOCKING PROSPERITY IN MY LIFE. I AM ALSO INTERESTED IN EXAMPLES OF OTHER WAYS TO SOURCE LIVES BESIDES MONEY.

Prosperity issue is something where even the two words do not go together. Prosperous, to prosper means to open the endless, limitless gifts of the universe and to prosper, to bring them into a gifted form so that they are magnified and multiplied. There are limitless gifts every moment. Instead of working on prosperity, spend a few moments noticing the gifts and opening to receive them more fully with gratitude. Just even noticing and acknowledging, and allowing them to fill your experience, your moment, and your sense of life.

Open to feeling your entire sensory experience with the awareness of all of those gifts that are present all the time in any moment. It might be a pleasing fragrance, it might be a beautiful sunset or the colors of leaves that are turning in the fall. It might be a child’s laughter or your own creation of food or the fresh lettuce you are washing in your sink. It might be any number of things that you notice. Don’t think about prosperity or money, just fill your awareness with gifts, with the moment, and let yourself open to receive more awareness and more awareness and more awareness until your cornucopia of awareness of giftedness of the universe, nature, earth, children, family, and of your essence overflows into your life.

It is not about working with prosperity issues. Those two things do not go together. Issue contracts, prosperity expands. They cannot be put together, they are not alike. You cannot work on prosperity. That is not alike. What is like prosperity? Gifts, gratitude, awareness, noticing presence, naming the beauty around you, filling, wholeness, love, wonder. These things are like prosperity.

WOULD YOU GIVE US A SPIRITUAL PERSPECTIVE ON THE “SCANDAL” IN WASHINGTON WITH PRESIDENT CLINTON?

Well there is a greater meaning for each person, because all are part of any experience that touches so many when there is a person such as a president who is involved in what you call a scandal. First of all scandal is a word. It is a judgment. It has a sort of value placed upon it. It is some people’s experience, it is what they would name it. If you release the judgment valuing of this one, or any of those involved, and let yourself open to the pure awareness of your own being, then you will notice some things.

First you will notice where you are constricted, pointing to the direction for yourself to be aware of any place of judgment of self or others, or separation that you have placed in your own consciousness around issues of sexuality or morality, right or wrong. Notice those places that limit, constrict, create judgment and fear. Second, allow the love that is available to all to be present in your awareness as you focus in this particular place, and allow yourself to receive whatever gifts are there for you. There may come opportunities where you will share your awareness with others. Perhaps it is just for you. There are as many gifts in this experience as there are people perceiving it in the world.

Some choose not to receive the gifts and to stand in righteousness and judgment. Some open to receive the gifts and are blessed beyond measure and have great gratitude for the experience that is bringing them such gifts. Where do you wish to be?

I HAD A LONG PERIOD OF TIME LAST FALL WHEN I WAS SEEING THE NUMBER 11:11 EVERYDAY. IT CONTINUED UNTIL I FOUND SOME INFORMATION ON THE PHENOMENON ON A WEB SITE CREATED BY A WOMAN NAMED SOLARA. A FEW DAYS AGO I E-MAILED A DAUGHTER. I SENT IT OFF AND THEN BROUGHT THE LETTER UP ON THE SCREEN TO SEE HOW THE FORMAT LOOKED. IN THE AREA FOR CARBON COPY RECIPIENTS THERE WAS SOMETHING TYPED THAT I DIDN’T PUT THERE! IT READ “STAR-BORNE UNLIMITED”, THE 11:11 WEB SITE. HOW THE HECK DID THAT HAPPEN?

The 11:11 is like a code in consciousness to open the portals beyond the separation consciousness into the next dimensional awareness level where the evolution of consciousness is going. It’s rather like a doorway. Solara was one who earlier was aware of this and was given information to assist people to unlock the codes and to see that when this comes before your eyes in whatever form it is a reminder to open the portal and to allow yourself to move beyond the experience of separation and the small self. You then move into an awareness of the whole of who you are and how that now wishes to recreate you and recreate your world.

Your soul, in a sense, can do anything. There are no limits and no conditions given to your soul and those who work with you. Only the physical personification or ego perceives limits as to what is possible and will make certain things impossible. We see no limits, we have no limits. Those who work with you are not limited and your soul is not limited, truly, so that if something needs to get your attention in a way that blows your attention beyond that limited perception of what is possible, then something like this occurs. Then you are aware, perhaps in a more tangible way, with proof, that what is beyond your control and limited perceptions exists and invites you to join with it.

I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH IBS, LACTOSE INTOLERANCE, REOCCURRING DEPRESSION, AND ANXIETY FROM A POST TRAUMATIC EVENT. I HAVE HAD YEARS OF HIGH STRESS AND MAJOR CHANGES IN MY LIFE. ONE CHANGE WAS WATCHING MY FATHER PASS AWAY, ACCOMPANIED BY FOUR ANGELS. I EXPERIENCED HIS SPIRITUAL SELF LEAVE THE EARTH PLANE, BUT FOR MONTHS I HAVE SEEN MY FATHER’S SHADOW MOVING AROUND MY HOUSE. ONE NIGHT I HEARD ON THE RADIO A SONG CALLED “DADDY’S HOME” FOLLOWED BY “SOMEDAY WE’LL BE TOGETHER”. AFTER THAT THE SHADOWS STOPPED. WERE THE SONGS MESSAGES FROM MY DAD?

Your father lingered for a time in the middle world, and in a way needed to make a few things more complete before completing his transition. The angels held a space for him to do that. He was able to then complete and move on. The songs were placed within your awareness. You might say they came through the radio, but the inspiration for those and your ability to recognize the message within them was inspired by him and those that work with you so you could receive it directly.

On other levels, soul levels, there are always ways to make another soul aware of what is taking place and what the message might be. If it comes through music or a direct message or any other means, once a person receives the message then there is a completion. So your father’s journey on earth is now complete. It is good for you to allow yourself to also release that transition time where he not only lingered in body for a time, but lingered in earth for a time, making the transition from body to Spirit his way and in a way that took a few more steps than perhaps someone else. That was his way.

Bring beautiful, unconditional love into your field in the form of pink or rose-colored light. Bring roses into your home with an invitation to assist you to release any impressions, any emotions, that you may have picked up, taken on, or reacted from your own inner child during that time. Pink light and roses heal. They will heal trauma and fear, and will bring the soul to wholeness, releasing impressions that would draw you away. That will assist you to come to completion as well.

I AM JUST CURIOUS WHAT YOU SEE FOR ME FOR THE NEXT YEAR?

This is a brief message, so we will not go into great detail. As we look at you right now what we see overall is a sense of making choices. In the choices that are presented there will always be one presented that will lead you to something familiar and one that will lead you to something unfamiliar, but enticing with an attraction. Your soul is in the process of choosing whether to wrap itself with greater security with the familiar, or whether to open the doors that are presenting themselves to you and fly more free.

Your soul desires to open. Your personality isn’t quite sure about all that. So it is a year of trusting that when you take steps that lead to unfamiliar paths, that you will be cared for, guided, and brought into an ever-deepening fulfillment in your own nature, and that it is possible to feel and know deep peace and fulfillment in this body and this life, but it is not based in the familiar.

I HAVE RECEIVED TWO LETTERS FROM A SECRET ADMIRER. THE FIRST WAS HARMLESS, BUT THE SECOND ONE HAS ME UNNERVED. IT WAS VERY DIRECT IN WAYS OF SAYING HOW YOU FEEL TO SOMEONE YOU’RE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH. I’M NOT SURE WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT. IT’S WEIRD AND SCARY TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE FEELS THIS WAY AND IS WATCHING ME. DO I KNOW THIS PERSON? WHAT’S THE BEST WAY TO HANDLE THIS?

You do know this person, or this person is in your field of awareness. How to handle it would be to very firmly establish a stronger sense of your own integrity, your own sense of self, and your own energy field. Bring a strength of mind to this place where you begin to say ‘I will only receive unconditional, pure love from any person that is in my field, I will only receive complete, unconditional love and that is all’. So that in a sense you fill your awareness, your mind, and your field with the purity of love, the true love. That which is distorted or coming from need cannot then harm you, and you begin to realize that that one may show himself in a way that you begin to be aware of who it is and then there may be ways to work directly rather than feeling as if you are the object of the attention.

In your small self, fear is the result. Do not allow it to give you that kind of experience. Choose your experience. Choose what you wish to experience. Choose to know that the purest of love will only create the purest of love.

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS MY LIFE PURPOSE AND IF I AM ON THE PATH TO IT?

You cannot not be on your path. Your soul works through your personality, and at times you may make choices that seem to be constrictive or fear based. But even in that you become more and more aware that you are not feeling expansive or open. Whenever you open to the sense of the flow of your life, that which says ‘yes’ to life, you can be assured that you are on your path and that your deeper soul purpose for existence is being fulfilled.

Purpose does not mean doing something of great importance. That is not purpose. Purpose is being true to your soul’s awareness and unfoldment in every moment as much as possible. Sometimes that means taking a nap, because that is what is needed in the moment. Sometimes it means doing something that will have a great amount of recognition, because that is what is called for. It is not about what it is that you do, but whether or not it is in alignment with the truth of your nature in that moment. By paying attention that that awareness and that level of awareness, then you will always be on your path and you will always be fulfilling your soul’s purpose for existence.

HOW DO I SPEED UP OR ATTRACT THE RIGHT PERSON TO A HOME THAT I AM SELLING IN ANOTHER TOWN? I HAVE USED IT FOR RENTAL AND NOW THINK THAT IT IS TIME TO LET GO OF IT AND SIMPLIFY. ANY INSIGHT WILL BE HELPFUL.

Home, even if it has not been directly connected to you as a living space, has been a part of you, a portion of you. What part of you has it represented? Ask yourself this, and let yourself embrace this aspect of yourself and bring it to you into your own home space, your own sacred space now so that it no longer is separate, fragmented, or apart from you manifesting in this place that is a separate home that you have given or rented to another.

Let yourself bring this aspect of your nature home to you, and embrace. Let it, then, come to a greater sense of freedom in the manifested world of this place then being able to be the home of someone else and they create their own energy within it by buying it from you. Make your completions with that space. Make sure that you feel good about it. If there is anything that needs to be done to finish a sense that you have done all you can, then do so. Do not leave it with a sense of something left undone. If that means fixing a porch or something else, then do so. Then let go with blessing. Blessing the house, blessing the way it has served you and that portion of your being, and blessing that one that is coming to receive it.

I HAVE INVESTIGATED MANY SPIRITUAL PATHS, AND THEY ALL APPEAL TO ME. I BELIEVE THAT IN ORDER TO PROGRESS, ONE MUST PICK ONE AND STICK WITH IT. HOW CAN I TELL WHICH IS THE BEST PATH FOR ME?

In this time there are different choices. One choice is to pick a particular discipline or practice and then to dwell within it, learn within it, and grow within it. Another choice, however, is to pick the path of your own soul. That has not been so well known in the earth, but it is what has been surfacing since the 1960’s and 1970’s as the old frameworks of consciousness were broken and opened. Then soul paths and soul awareness began to break through. When you listen purely and truly to that, you will find that there is not a particular practice, but rather a unfolding from within to without, drawing into your experience the people, the processes, the books, the training, the tools, and the skills that might be necessary to come into a full alignment and fulfillment with your own soul’s nature and intention for this life.

Rather than looking outward to another to be teacher, you open to receiving and listening and following your own inner guidance system that is unfailingly connected to the great unfolding of consciousness in this time. You can make your choice. If you feel as if you desire to choose a path, then do so based on your heart and what feels most in resonance with your soul. If you choose to follow your own soul’s guidance as a path, then do so without any regret, judgment, or sense of missing out on something else that you might have done. Know that following your soul’s guidance is a very viable, true, and actually quite efficient path for this time of quickening in consciousness.

EACH DAY I ASK SPIRIT TO DIRECT ME TO A JOB WHICH WILL BRING ME AND THOSE I ENCOUNTER JOY AND LIGHT. CAN YOU DIRECT ME TO A LINE OF WORK WHERE I CAN GIVE AND RECEIVE LIGHT AND LIVE? CURRENTLY I WORK WITH COMPUTERS AND AM MIRED IN TECHNOLOGY.

A job that is in the outer world is often an expression that has been chosen by your nature, somewhere in your unconscious life, that is the safest place for you to be. So you choose machines and technology because there was a way in which your heart was not quite ready to interact in intimacy and to be known and know others at that level. You have grown and you have changed. Rather than asking for a job, ask to align your heart and its new-found strength with an expression where there is a greater flow of life, love, and intimacy that also then gives you opportunity to come into greater alignment with your soul and your nature. Then a job or an expression is not only to serve you to make money for your livelihood or your life, but it is in a sense the outer expression of what you have evolved and grown in the inner life. So integration is what you ask for, integration of the outer and inner.

I HAVE WHAT SOME DOCTORS HAVE DIAGNOSED AS OSTEO-ARTHRITIS, BUT MOST JUST SAY THEY HAVEN’T EXPERIENCED THIS AILMENT BEFORE AND DON’T KNOW. FOUR GENERATIONS IN MY FAMILY HAVE SHARED THESE SYMPTOMS: THE FEET AND LOWER LEGS ARE AS IF DEAD, NUMB. THEY CAN BE STUCK WITH NEEDLES AND NOT FELT. YET, THE PAIN INSIDE THE FEET AND LEGS IS SO SEVERE THAT IT IS DIFFICULT TO SLEEP. CAN YOU HELP?

What you are describing is what we would call an inherited experience that has to do with a certain etheric configuration of energy in the legs. If there is not an ability to connect from the body to the earth, if the lines of energy flow cannot complete the journey from the earth to the body and the body to the earth, then there can be a number of different kinds of manifestations. In your family you are experiencing it in this way. What we would say to you is to utilize a process and a practice for several weeks where before you go to be at night you ask for those of healing presence to work to reconnect the etheric meridians of energy and light between your body where they have been severed and are not connected through to your feet and through to the earth.

Simultaneously, work with releasing fear from yourself, from any experience of fear that you felt from in your family, any experience of anxiety or fear, whether subtle or overt. Unwind it from your field as if you are releasing it. On a physical plane, use high quality essential oils, rose oil combined with melissa oil, on the lower part of your body from the lower thighs to your feet. Allow that as you do this you are bringing life and healing and love to release the patterning of fear that has been passed on from generation to generation in this particular manifestation that has rigidified in this way.

That would be our suggestion on the two levels, the energetic and the physical. It perhaps would be several weeks in a gentle process, because the emotional release will release the energetic release, the energetic release will assist the healing of the physical body, and then simultaneously the release of the toxins that are also part of the body’s manifestation. Drink lots of water with fresh lemon and continue to allow yourself to know that this is possible to release and heal.