Small Group Sessions November 22, 1998

I HAD A SPIRITUAL TEACHER WITH WHOM I ALSO HAD A CLOSE, PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP. IN WAKING, VISION, AND DREAM WE MADE PROMISES AND COMMITMENTS TO EACH OTHER. TWO YEARS AGO HE DIED OF CANCER. I HAD CLEAR ENCOUNTERS WITH HIM AFTER HE PASSED, BUT NOTHING EXCEPT VERY SUBTLE ONES FOR A LONG TIME NOW. WOULD YOU PLEASE LOOK AND TELL ME WHAT IS GOING ON? I HOPE YOU WON’T TELL ME TO “MOVE ON”.

When there is a very strong soul resonance and connection in the earth plane, one will take on the part of student and one will take on the part of teacher. It serves to awaken both in a different way, with different kinds of exchanges. When one of the aspects then moves out of the physical, then you are to embody both the student and the teacher rather than keeping one as an external force that may no longer be with you. Breath in and take in to yourself the awareness of your own inner teacher and the consciousness that is there that relates to you, and then merge the student and the teacher within you. It is not about letting go or moving on, it is more about integrating and allowing the whole of you to stand in the earth and begin to claim a part of your nature that has been separated from you by keeping it with the other. As you do this, you may find that there are things that you would like to teach others, pass on, share, express, or write. Do so, and that will be the culmination of this relationship.

OUR OLDEST CHILD IS AN ADULT PROFESSIONAL WHO HAS DIFFICULTY MAINTAINING RELATIONSHIPS THAT ARE LOVING AND MEANINGFUL. SHE PRESENTS A STRONG SECURE IMAGE COVERING HER SHY, INSECURE INNER SELF. CAN YOU GIVE US INSIGHT INTO THE PATTERN ESTABLISHED AND SUGGESTIONS FOR MOVING FORWARD?

What we see when we look at you and your daughter is that she has within her some things that were brought in from another time to work with in this life, some of which are patterned into your family or ancestry. There is a shared resonance or karmic pattern. She can begin bringing her own soul essence more and more into the center of her being by asking and focusing, and realizing that what she feels most deeply is true for her. Then she will start to relax and bring into the second and root chakras a deeper sense of her own ability to receive her own feelings, impulses, desires, and needs, and begin to respond to them with love as if responding to the inner self, the self that has desires, is as important as responding to someone else’s needs, expressions, or expectations.

It’s a feminine conditioning to be externally focused rather than meeting one’s own needs. That is what is shifting for her as well as for you. As she does this she will start to have a greater sense of integrity and strength, and be able to be with another and not give herself away, as well as be able to say needs but not be devastated if those needs cannot be met outside of her. She will know she has her own inner resources. So, intimacy with self precedes intimacy with another.

CAN YOU TELL ME ABOUT THE WHITE BROTHERHOOD, THE ROSICRUCIANS AND OTHER HISTORICAL GROUPS AND THEIR ROLE IN OUR ENLIGHTENMENT PROCESS. I’VE FOUND THAT THE WHITE BROTHERHOOD MEDITATIONS BRING MY HIGHER SELF INTO MY 3-D REALITY, OR TO BRING UP MY FREQUENCY SO THAT IT MAY BE WITH ME MORE FULLY. IS THIS A WAY TO BE AWARE IN ALL OUR DIMENSIONS?

The meditations are designed to assist the human consciousness to embody higher and higher frequencies so make the transformation within matter that is happening. The beings of light in the White Brotherhood and Sisterhood, it is not just a male institution, have been working with human nature and consciousness for many centuries. The assist through those who allow themselves to either embody or be vehicles to pass the information along. The mystery schools such as the Rosicrucians and Masons, etc., were formed based on such information, some of which got crystallized because there is always a need for current information. Current currency, or currents of information and light that are necessary for what is now happening.

We would suggest using the meditation processes while staying open to your own information or way of proceeding that would be of assistance to you now. This is a way to utilize the gifts that are there while not letting them be crystallized, so that you can use them in a way that will be more efficient and effective.

I’VE ALWAYS BEEN SOMEWHAT SUSPICIOUS OF FORMAL BELIEF SYSTEMS. THERE ALWAYS SEEMS TO HAVE BEEN SIGNIFICANT POTENTIAL FOR DISTORTION BY THE HUMAN ELEMENT. SOMEONE ONCE SAID THAT “TRUTH IS A PATHLESS LAND”. I’D LIKE TO POSE A METAPHOR: IT SEEMS THAT WE WANDER THROUGH A GREAT OPEN FIELD GATHERING A FEW KERNELS HERE AND THERE, ALL THE WHILE SORTING THROUGH MUCH CHAFF. IN OTHER WORDS WE CREATE OUR OWN UNIQUE PATH TO TRUTH. DOES THIS MAKE SENSE? WILL RELIGIONS BECOME OBSOLETE?

It makes very good sense, and you are one of those who would be an evolutionary consciousness that has the capacity to do what is described in that metaphor. All people are not at the evolutionary level of awareness to be of such discernment to be able to sort, discern, pick, choose, and create their own path, so they line up with a religion or a teacher for a time to form a certain resonance and to assist them through practices that would be assisting of embodiment processes.

Most of the religions have forgotten the essential practices, so they are not passing them on to people. Rather they have institutionalized them, which separates them from direct experience. Those who are teaching in some of the more esoteric traditions are bringing more direct experience through in order to assist people to have the experience necessary to do what you do, to discern, sort, and form their own path.

Yes, religions will eventually be obsolete in the way that they are now institutionalized. They will become a sort of spiritual repository, and the truths within them will begin to be lifted out, polished off, re-energized and again made available.

HOW DOES MOTHER EARTH KNOW UNCONDITIONAL LOVE? WHAT TRANSFORMATION IS SHE HOPING TO ACHIEVE AND WHAT OPPORTUNITIES OR LESSONS ARE TO BE IN THIS INTEGRATION OF SOULS?

She IS unconditional love. It is her essence. She doesn’t know it, she is it. She is woven of all of the rays of consciousness that are of the divine source, with her heart being unconditional love. That is her nature. As she opens up her own nature within the larger conscious field, which you are all part of, then you begin to become aware of unconditional, nurturing mother love. You are then empowered to release the distortions, the separations, and the lies that have blinded consciousness and awareness from the realization of your essential oneness with her and oneness with the whole of creation, which extends beyond her and beyond you. It is far vaster. You are part of the great whole and so is she. She is your mother in terms of opening the awareness of beingness, and re-establishing a resonant frequency for the truth of the wholeness to exist in form and matter.

She is achieving a metamorphosis of her own experience to be fully consciousness and birthing that which is a fully consciousness, creative race of consciousness, embodied Creator within the whole of creation without distortion and without limitation and separation.

WE ARE IN A TRANSITION TO BECOMING A RACE OF BEINGS THAT IS CONSCIOUS. WHAT’S THE TIMING OF THIS? HOW FAST WILL THIS TAKE PLACE?

This transformation happens exponentially. What happens is that as this energy of the new matrix of consciousness enters the larger field of consciousness it creates more and more and more dissonance with the old structures that are more crystallized, dualistic, polarity bound, less fluid, and denser. The more it happens, the more the old structures break down and fragment and create chaotic kinds of conditions and behaviors. That aspect is bound to escalate as the consciousness grows. The more this new consciousness can be articulated and given new form in all the different places that life exists, the more easily those that are in chaos will have something to move into and be part of. It makes the transition much gentler and easier. If there is nothing new to move into, then there is more chaos and greater breaking down.

Timing? It is actually happening, and time itself is part of what is dismantling. Experientially, time is shifting or changing. It’s weaving differently into your consciousness so that it is no longer only a linear experience. It’s more of a sense of the whole of time, which includes the past, present, and future, and simultaneous experience. That can be either chaotic, if you have no reference for it, or it can be illuminating. The more you have reference for it, the more illumination you derive from the experience. So, it is not a matter of time as much as it is a matter of the growth of this awareness of this matrix in the whole of consciousness, and how it proceeds in exponential fashion. The time-table, if you wish, is around the cycle of 2012 to be complete. If it isn’t complete, it doesn’t mean that at that moment time is up. It just means that there is a little longer in that exponential experience, and so it may take longer. And, it may go sooner.

PLEASE HELP ME TO UNDERSTAND HOW TO CHANGE MY CORE/CHILD FEELINGS THAT I LACK VALUE. I ALWAYS REACT WITH ANGER WHEN I AM CALLED UPON TO EXPLAIN MYSELF OR IF SOMEONE IS AGGRESSIVE AND CONFRONTATIONAL. I WORK IN THE DUALITY AND DENSITY OF A GOVERNMENT JOB, AND I FIND MYSELF NUMB FROM THE LACK OF CARING AND AWARE CONSCIOUSNESS. SHOULD I LEAVE THIS ENVIRONMENT NOW, OR IS THERE A WAY TO COPE SO THAT I CAN GET MY TEENAGER THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL BEFORE I BOLT?

Getting your teenager through high school may not be as important as choosing life for yourself and modeling that for your teenager. Living in a place where there is death all around you and not having the sense of the life within you being nurtured zaps and takes energy. So much energy, in fact, that you have little left for your own life experience, your own life force, your own life choices. Your essence is calling to you through awareness of how you feel. Listen to how you feel. Trust that your soul knows the path that will open to you that can bring to you greater abundance as well as assisting you to heal the patterns of not valuing yourself, and therefore being in a situation where you are not valued for who you truly are.

Go to your inner child with unconditional love and acceptance, and realize that she was faced with an impossible bargain. Either she gave herself up in order to fulfill other people’s expectations, conditions and values, or she wasn’t going to be loved, accepted, or given the kind of love she felt she needed. Give your own inner child unconditional love, and tell her that who she is is who you are, and that you would love for her to begin to open that again into life. Listen to her, letting her unwind the patterns and replace them with the truth of who you are. You might, then, want to change your job. There are many more places of life emerging in the earth than where you are currently.

FOR QUITE A LONG TIME I HAVE BEEN SEEING DOUBLE NUMBERS ON CLOCKS. 11,22,33,44, OR 55. WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?

A double number is a reflection of some level of mastery that your soul is bringing into resonance or into your life or field of consciousness in some way. Mastery is not something that says I am master over, it is more that which is a sense of bringing into your life and experience of self an aspect of your nature that has already evolved a certain level of awareness. It is as if you wake up a part of you that has been latent, waiting for a certain time in order to come into being in presence. As you let that aspect of your greater soul rejoin you completely, you start to feel as if you want to do some things, express some things, or move in a certain way. You want to begin to call into awareness a language to express things, or you want to explore and follow something. That is the indication the numbers will give you. As long as you keep seeing the numbers you are on the right path.

AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER, MY LIFE HAS BEEN CONTROLLED BY EXTREME FATIGUE AND DESIRE TO SLEEP DURING THE DAY. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PARTICIPATE MORE FULLY IN THE LIVES OF MY CHILDREN AND OTHERS INSTEAD OF JUST BARELY GETTING BY. I HAVE A STRONG FEELING THAT I EXPERIENCED SOME KIND OF TRAUMA IN MY CHILDHOOD OR A PAST LIFE. COULD YOU PLEASE SHED SOME LIGHT?

You have trauma in both this life and a past life. It split an aspect of your soul off from your body, and so your body and your soul are not very well linked or connected. Therefore you sleep in order to be in connection with your soul, which is survival for you. Healing work would be helpful. Bring a lot of pink, unconditional love, rose-colored light to the trauma, the place where the split occurred. Allow yourself to open to receiving whatever aspect is caught in that trauma, allowing yourself to call her back into resonance, into your body, into your field, calling her back home to your heart. Now you have the capacity to assist her to heal and to be with her in the way that she needed someone to be with her in those traumatic times when no one responded to her cries. Now you respond, you are there, just as you would be with your own children. Healing work may be necessary to reconnect all of the chakras into the whole of you, your energy field, and into the earth, because that is part of the disconnection. Begin, and you soul does know how to do this, so begin.

I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO CONTACT MY HIGHER SELF AND GUIDES, BUT I CAN’T SEEM TO MAKE CONTACT. I’VE TRIED MEDITATING AND EVERYTHING I CAN THINK OF AND NOTHING SEEMS TO WORK. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?

Rather than trying to connect to guides or that which is outside of you, do some work first with connecting to your own feelings, your own sense of your desires, your own inner self, your own heart, your own individuation. Your individual self, your own soul nature needs you to be more aware, more connected to what is real and true for you, and disconnect from what has been a program of listening to something or patterning yourself according to something outside of you. That has made you adapt your energy field to be externally focused. It is difficult when you have been externally focused to find a pathway to listening until you turn around and listen to what’s already there, first. When you listen to what’s already there first, then your inner child will open a door to the greater self, or what you call the higher self of the inner wisdom. But it is your inner child that needs the attention first.

WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF FASTING? HOW OFTEN AND LONG WOULD YOU RECOMMEND A PERSON FAST? IS IT DAMAGING IN ANY WAY TO THE PHYSICAL BODY (MINE) TO GO WITHOUT FOOD FOR 3 DAYS OR MORE?

This response is not a generic answer, it is specifically for you. For you, fasting would not be detrimental to your health. You could use water with fresh lemon or fresh fruit or vegetable juices as a means of sustaining a fast for 3-5 days. You would find that you would need to allow two or three of those days for rest towards the end. It would be better if you did not try to maintain a normal function. You probably could maintain some function for the first two days, but after that you would probably not. It would be beneficial if you were trying to clear your field and your body. Just do that, and do it on all levels using different washes of different frequencies and colors through your field to also penetrate cells and the memory and the body experiences to release and detox. You might have emotions come up, you might have memories come up, that’s all part of it and it would be good to allow a space for that.

Water fasting is not better than juice fasting, so make your choice according to what you would like to use as a means of allowing your body to have a certain rest. It is dangerous for some people to do this. Your body is able to handle it, but no longer than 5 days.

I’VE FELT DRAWN TO A PARTICULAR MAN FOR QUITE A WHILE. MY THOUGHTS AND DREAMS USED TO BE CONSTANTLY FILLED WITH HIM. IN THE PAST I DIDN’T FEEL STRONG ENOUGH OF OR IN LOVE ENOUGH WITH MYSELF TO SAY ANYTHING TO HIM ABOUT MY ATTRACTION. HE LEFT THE WORKPLACE WHERE I MET HEM AS WELL AS MY THOUGHTS AND DREAMS. RECENTLY, HOWEVER, MY DREAMS AND THOUGHTS ARE OF HIM AGAIN, AND I JUST FOUND OUT THAT HE’S BACK. I’M NOT SURE IF I SHOULD LET MY FEELINGS BE KNOW. WHAT IS THE CONNECTION BETWEEN THIS MAN AND I?

When there is a soul-level awareness or agreement, then you have an energy that is shared at that level. You are connected at that level. In the human level it doesn’t always play out in the same way, but you feel a soul knowing or resonance on that level. If you have a sense, and if the situation presents itself, to make your feelings known, you might want to do that as a beginning to bring the soul and the human together.

I’M 46, AND RECENTLY DISCOVERED THAT I HAVE ADHD. I’VE BEEN FLOODING MYSELF WITH INFORMATION, INCLUDING YOURS ABOUT THE NEW CHILDREN. THE USE OF STIMULANT DRUGS HAS RISEN 60% AMONG CHILDREN SINCE 1990. IT THIS A “GOOD” THING OR A “BAD” ONE?

These young ones are bringing large charges into their bodies, and they don’t have around them the kind of stimulation or support that allows them to really move in the ways that they are designed to move and create in the ways that they are designed to create. When there is such a vast disparity between the existing systems and the frequencies that the children are bringing in, then Ritalin may be the only answer. People will need to get a little more conscious or open up a little bit more and support these great big beings in these small bodies, listen to them, support them, and let them start to move and learn at the rate at which they are capable of learning. They are rather like your highest speed computers, and they are being treated as if they are slow like 486’s. The frustration that builds up in them is tremendous. You need you smartest, most aware, conscious people working with these children, and they will then thrive without Ritalin.

AFTER THREE YEARS OF BOTH WESTERN AND ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE TREATMENTS, MY FRIEND WAS FINALLY DIAGNOSES AS HAVING RHEUMATOID ARTHRITIS. BOTH OF US THINK THAT SPIRITUAL/MENTAL/EMOTIONAL BELIEFS FILTER DOWN TO MANIFEST AS PHYSICAL ILLNESS, AND THE LIKELY BELIEF BEHIND AN AUTOIMMUNE DISEASE LIKE ARTHRITIS IS SOME KIND OF SELF HATRED. I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HELP HER PAIN A LITTLE BIT WITH REIKI TREATMENTS, AND CHI-GONG SEEMS TO HAVE OPENED SOME ENERGY. SHE IS NOW TAKING WESTERN MEDICINES, BUT NOTHING HELPS. WHAT DOES SHE NEED TO DO TO HEAL?

The autoimmune diseases that are rampant now have multiple causes in their creation. Part of it is environmental. Part of it is the shifting of consciousness that disrupts the kind of stability that the physical body likes to have in order to maintain a certain harmony and health. There is not much stability in the world nor in lives as this shift occurs, so the body feels less supported. One thing that is helpful for her is to begin to regularly use violet purifying energy throughout her field. The purifying energy will release some of the distorted patterns that she inherited to some degree. They are not fully her own. She can begin to move them gently but deliberately out of her field and consciousness. It is also helpful for her to use the violet around her if she is out and about until she feels stronger. It is also important to connect to the earth very directly and opening up through the root chakra a quite strong influx of certain frequencies that the earth holds that are for inner strength and inner well-being and a sense of physical-life healing.

Some of the patterning is in the root chakra, inherited through the mother and the mother’s family, so it is not just her own and she should not see it that way. Some of it is environmental, so as much natural air as possible, particularly being away from any chemicals that would be land-based such as things that are put on lawns, gardens, or fields. Those particular chemicals are disrupting of the immune system in general.