Small Group Sessions June 22, 1998

OUR CULTURE REVOLVES AROUND THE DOMINATOR HEIRARCHY OF MALE GOD, MAN, WOMAN, CHILDREN, ANIMALS, PLANTS, ENVIRONMENT, SEEMINGLY IN THAT ORDER OF IMPORTANCE. IN MY SOUL’S EVOLUTION I SEE THE OPPORTUNITIES TO EXAMINE AND GROW TO LOVE BY SETTING ASIDE THE PATHS OF HUMAN COERCION THAT THE DOMINATOR PATTERN REQUIRES TO SURVIVE. DOES IT SERVE THE SOUL TO WORK FOR SOCIAL JUSTICE, OR IS IT PRUDENT TO WALK QUIETLY IN THE SOLO PATHWAY OF LOVE AND HARMONY? I SEE BIG PICTURE OPPORTUNITIES WITH SOME EASE, BUT FIND IT A CHALLENGE TO SHARE AS CURRENT REALITY AND VISIONS ARE OFTEN NOT EASY TO RECONCILE. I’M NOT QUITE SURE HOW TO CLOSE OUT THE NOISE LEVEL OF THE DOMINATOR CULTURE AS I IMAGINE A PARTNERSHIP CULTURE OVERLAY.

It is a very wonderful question because your consciousness is on a threshold. The only way in the past to bring high frequency into the density has been to be an activist or a change agent within certain institutions, or within the culture, or within some matrix of consciousness that you would choose to step into. So you have had the women suffragettes, and you have had those who would fight for racial justice. You have had those who advocate for victims of rape or victims of abuse, and you have those who are against drunk driving, etc.

What is happening is something different, and you will recognize more and more that what is of the truth has nothing to do with domination or hierarchies, and nothing to do with dualities and being for or against anything. It is truly another entire paradigm of consciousness, another matrix. It is made differently, it works differently, and it looks different.

What we suggest to you, even though there is noise of a domination culture, is to begin to hold the vision, hold the frequencies of the new matrix. Bring it into your body and hold the frequencies of love, of honor and acknowledgment of every portion of creation whether it be animate, inanimate, human, natural, or spiritual. Hold in your heart what is your great desire to see, know, and experience this in form, and then listen for what it is that you could create or put into form in your own life, your own relationships, and in your earth. Even if it doesn’t come right away, stay tuned.

The more you embody the frequency and the vision, the more you embody your magnetic force from your own connection to the earth and her magnetic force, the more that is embodied and is allowed to marry the vision and marry the high frequencies that you are holding, then you are inevitably going to create what you envision. And there are others doing the same thing who will join together to create new forms so that there are choices and options, different than what are there now. You don’t go against something to do it, you create something new and offer it as an option for those who are willing to step to the next step in their conscious evolution.

I’M THANKFUL FOR THE LOVE AND SUPPORT THE UNIVERSE HAS BEEN BLESSING ME WITH, BUT I’M STILL BATTLING WHAT SEEMS TO BE MY OLD THINGS. AS I’M FEELING THESE THINGS I KEEP HAVING A VERY STRONG AND DEEP SENSE THAT I’M SUPPOSED TO DO SOMETHING VERY POWERFUL IN THIS WORLD FROM THE AWARENESS THAT I’M GOING THROUGH. I’VE DISCOVERED RECENTLY THAT I MAY HAVE THE GIFT FOR CHANNELING. I’M FINDING MYSELF FEELING SCARD AND DOUBTING THESE THINGS, NOT SURE HOW TO GET TO WHERE I KEEP FEELING I NEED TO BE OR DOING. WHAT DO YOU SEE BLOCKING ME AND WHAT CAN I FOCUS ON TO TRULY AWAKEN THESE PLACES IN MYSELF THAT ARE GENTLY NUDGING ME OF MY PURPOSE?

There are different ways to proceed, but you are perhaps recognizing that when you focus on the blessings and you focus on the nudging and you focus on that place within you that feels empowered from within that there is also a lifting, and you feel good and excited. When you focus on the fear and the doubts, and in a sense step back into the reality that does not acknowledge or honor the truth of who you are, which has been your experience in your past, then you doubt and you fear and you want to dismiss.

Your innate knowing has not been acknowledged or supported or reflected earlier in your life because of the dominant culture. This awareness of consciousness did not exist, according to it. According to you it does. It would be helpful to you to connect to the portions of consciousness that need the reflection and support of the awareness that you are growing. You bring your awareness to the unconsciousness that was patterned to hide your awareness. You bring them together and you allow them to begin to open and heal and shift the adaptive patterns of thought, of emotion, and of habit that were formed when the doubts took over or the fears took over in childhood, and you began to create an altered self that is not your true self.

Your true self is magnificent, and has great potential to create wondrous experiences for yourself and to include others. Channeling is a gift, it is a joy, and it is also only a tool for consciousness. The true experience that your soul is creating is your nature cleared of all doubt, fear, distortions and patterned adaptations, and living and creating from the true nature the experience that is yourself in form, so to speak, informed, and sharing that with others.

I WAS WONDERING WHY DO WE HAVE SO MANY PURE ENERGY CENTERS LIKE THE SOLAR PLEXUS. IF WE OPEN MORE THAN ONE DO WE DOUBLE OUR ENERGY, OR IS THERE A CERTAIN LIMIT THAT WE CAN’T AMP PAST A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF ENERGY? WHAT ROLE HAS THIS TAKEN IN THE PAST? WHY IS IT THERE IF WE REALLY DON’T NEED SO MUCH?

This questions does not imply a wholeness. It implies separation and moving everything into parts and trying to understand the parts and how they then function. Perhaps there is some benefit to understanding the parts, but the context in which we work is in a whole system. The whole of you is truly limitless, however the way energy and information is processed through the organism that is embodied has certain channels and certain ways in which those channels need to work together to process information, to manifest energy, to create intention and desire, to live in a human, physical dimension.

The solar plexus and other chakras are of the design of the human body as it is embodied. Does it have limitation? It has limitation in sequence only in the sense that there is a need to evolve the capacity of each chakra, be it the human personality chakras or the higher chakras. They all evolve and they all then have greater capacity to channel and process more energy and information and to be greater vehicles for that. Without a body your system shifts and changes, but in the body there is need for such.

WITHIN THE PAST MONTH I HAVE EXPERIENCED A DRAMATIC AND POWERFUL AWAKENING AND A HEIGHTENED AWARENESS OF MY CONSCIOUSNESS. IT FEELS AS IF I NEED TO USE THE “TIME” THAT IS MINE HERE ON THE EARTH PLANE TO INCORPORATE MY INHERITANCES; THE FEAR, REAGE, AGGRESSION, SUFFERING, NEGATIVITY AND DIS-EASE — THE POWERFUL ASPECTS AT THE ROOT OF MY HUMANITY AND DARKNESS — WITH THE LIGHT, HOPE, FAITH, JOY, GRATITUDE, AND LOVE THAT ABIDE WITHIN MY HEART AND CONNECT STARWARD. HEALING MY OWN BODYMIND AND SPIRIT FEELS VITALLY INTERTWINED WITH HEALING GAIA TERRA. AM I ANYWHERE NEAR THE BALLPARK ON THIS, AND DO YOU HAVE ANY HINTS AS TO JUST HOW I CAN FULFILL THIS VERY TANTALIZING POTENTIALITY?

Well, you are near the ballpark. There is and has been a great duality experienced in a polarized way within human consciousness. There is need to open what has been kept in the darkness through a lack of truthfulness, honesty, and integrity and through the distortions that have created layers that you perceive as darkness and all of those distortions that you named. And, you have great light in Spirit.

The greatest separation that has been promulgated throughout history is that Spirit is separate from earth, separate from the body, and therefore has to be, in a sense, brought in to do the work. That awareness then continues to see things as separate and having to be worked in a sort of separated way.

Begin to acknowledge and work with the feelings. You say “I have a feeling of great, powerful energy that feels like rage, and in this moment I have great energy at my disposal. What in the highest truth can I do with this energy”. You begin to realize that the energy of emotion, which has been labeled and then unconsciously acted out, is most often suppressed creative forces, suppressed truth, suppressed action that has been diverted because there has been fear or judgment about what others would say or think. The suppression has created a great, powerful sub-conscious or unconscious. You can unsuppress it by acknowledging it and opening it.

There may be areas in the past of your body’s consciousness that have been suppressed that wish to say “hey, I wish to surface because I was not acknowledged when I was two or three or five or ten or eighteen, and I didn’t act out my truth at that time so there is something unfinished”. That may have to be part of it, but listen to the truth of your feeling, listen to the truth of your inspiration, and you take some action based on the energy of it. That does not mean that you hurt anyone, but you can pound a pillow and move the energy of anger or rage, which is an action energy.

You can forgive the feeling of unresolved guilt, which is probably inherited, as you mentioned, and just to begin to say “what I release in earth I release on all levels. What I release on this day I release on all levels of consciousness for myself and on behalf of the whole”. It does not need to be so difficult. You are at a culmination place with all of those in consciousness who are with you. Your individuality is taking on a portion of it, and as you work with that in the moment you will find yourself growing ever more present, alive, aware, awake, and joyful.

I FEEL THAT I HAVE A POWERFUL WAY OF REACHING OTHERS AND COMMUNICATING WITH THE FORM OF MUSIC. WOULD IT BE WISE FOR ME TO CONTINUE TO TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, AND WOULD THIS BRING MATERIAL SUCCESSES? ALSO, CAN I CHANNEL MY HIGHER SELF OR IS IT JUST MY EGO COMING THROUGH? WILL THE RECORDING LABEL I AM SENDING TAPES TO HELP ME OUT EVENTUALLY?

Music is frequency and vibration. When you weave it together in song and harmony you are weaving frequencies together, and those affect people. Music is one of the most affecting elements on earth. It affects emotion and it affects the frequency that people are experiencing. They can be uplifted, they can be depressed, they can be reminded to be codependent, and they can be kept in their own limited lower frequencies. There is much power in music.

If you can stand in your integrity as one who desires to serve through working with these frequencies through music and take on the responsibility to bring the highest frequencies that you know to be possible through you into this weaving, then you serve a great number of people. If you look to it only as a financial possibility, it lowers your frequency immediately. So our suggestion is to play your music and to attune to the greatest joy in your body that you feel when you bring certain harmonies together and then allow that it will be the gift that you give, and the gift that you receive is support or whatever you desire.

Support and financial support is not dependent on your gift. The more you imagine and know that you are supported and loved in every way, physically, emotionally, spiritually, regardless of what you do, then you can begin to separate your gift from the survival instinct. When the gift is connected to the survival instinct it begins to contract and begins to die. It moves into a death spiral. You wish to heal, release and complete the patterning of survival fear and allow your gift to be free, because gifts that are free live forever. You can think of some of the greatest musicians that you may have known, and those songs that live forever were freely given. They were not tied to any fear or any contraction or any survival instinct.

There are two things in your question about the recording label. There is a need for you to set your music free. You are holding it a bit too close, owning it a bit too much. That then keeps it from going out through any channel. The particular place that you are linked with may not actually be the one that you end up going through. There is some possibility, but there is not a strong energy there. If you can set the gift of your music free from outcomes, and be in the place where you just wish to give it, then you will match with a different source for that to be done.

COULD YOU PLEASE TELL ME ABOUT ST. GERMAINE?

St Germaine is one of the beings that is assisting in the planetary transformation that is occurring on earth. He embodies and is one of the beings that works with the violet ray out of Source. He works with the transmutation of that which has been matter, thought, the transmutation of that which needs to move from one level to another level to evolve, change form, and awaken the true nature within the heart of each soul.

He is a great being that can be called upon and whose work with you will assist transmutation of consciousness to a new level of clarity and truth.

IS THERE A “PLAN”? FOR INSTANCE, I HAVE TROUBLE BELIEVING THAT VIOLENCE AND RAGE ARE A PART OF THE PLAN. IT SEEMS TO ME THAT THOSE THINGS EXIST BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE NOT YET TUNED INTO WHAT THEY SHOULD BE DOING. YET OTHER PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY THOSE OF THE MORE TRADITIONAL RELIGIONS, TALK OF GOD’S PLAN, AND INCLUDE VIOLENCE AND RAGE, OR AT LEAST THE RESULTS OF VIOLENCE AND RAGE, AS PART OF THAT PLAN. THAT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME, AND I AM CONFUSED. HOW COULD A GOD OR SPIRIT WHO ARE MADE OF LOVE INCLUDE VIOLENCE, RAGE, AND HATE AS PART OF A DIVINE PLAN?

That’s a difficult question to answer in a short time. We will give our perspective, but know that there is more.

The nature of duality is to split apart, in a sense. There is the positive aspect which is that each atom has a negative and a positive charge, that each part of you is masculine and feminine, and there is a yin and a yang. Duality is part of the nature of creation. When it is distorted and severed, as if Spirit is severed from body, as if compassion and love is severed from a consciousness, then there are splits and there are distortions and polarization rather than complement and working together as it is intended. There’s polarization and there is that which becomes rage and hate and violence, and that is opposed to the righteousness of the religious ones who say “I am good if I follow these rules”, neither of which is true.

Is there a plan? A plan is such that it would be like a blueprint, and there is a blueprint to evolve consciousness. Consciousness is evolving to the realization, the awareness, the waking up to the truth, that what is the essence of each one’s soul is Divine, is the same as that Source of creation, or God that has been worshipped outside of self. That has been part of the split, part of the distortion. God, if you wish, does not have a plan that includes polarization, but it does include duality, or that which is two.

That split apart widened when certain aspects of consciousness inserted domination and control over fear and powerlessness. Rather than opening to a greater awareness of how to work together in complimentarity, there was a splitting apart and then a decision to control, dominate, manipulate, etc., leading to war and violence and power over another. That is not God acting, that is the distortion acting. The more that you can just name it that without judging it and getting caught in it then the more you can say the truth is that “I am, and all that are alive are Divine in nature”.

There is a masculine and a feminine, a yin and a yang, a positive and a negative that compliment and work together for the purpose of bringing Creator form into creation. That is the truth. The more you assert and know the truth for yourself, healing the polarities and the places that have fragmented in your own consciousness, the more you will understand what we say.

I AM BECOMING DISENCHANTED WITH MY CURRENT CIRCUMSTANCES AND FEEL A NEED FOR A CHANGE IN DIRECTION, BUT YET AM COMFORTABLE AND SECURE WHERE I AM. HOW CAN WE KNOW WHEN IT’S TIME TO MOVE ON AND FACE UNCERTAINTIES OR STAY AND FACE STAGNATION?

When you feel the urge to move and there is energy to move, begin to move immediately. You don’t have to take the great leap all at once, but begin. If there is an urge to explore a new direction, to become educated in a different kind of way, to read up or find avenues to explore or create in a new way, to challenge yourself in a different way, begin immediately. Do not hold back and allow energy to begin to stagnate in comfort and security, for you will then die. It is really a choice of life or death. Do you wish to live, or do you wish to die. Stagnation is death, movement and change is life.

Allow your soul to guide your. Trusting your own instincts and your own energy movement that comes from within you gives honor and acknowledgment to your essence and your soul. The more you honor and acknowledge that level the more it will lead you, guide you, and be visible in the way to move into a new life, and that is what you create is more life.