Small Group Sessions January 29, 2004

Open your bodies a little………….

Aya Komaiya…………from my heart to yours……..

Hello, thank you for inviting me. It is truly my pleasure to be here, of course.

It is indeed a time of great wonder, in some ways. Are you feeling what is already beginning to shift in your lives, the time & space continuum? It is as if a great spiral wind, a great, whooshing spiral wind is moving through your manifest experience. Little do many know what is happening. But you ones, it is wondrous that you have opened so much over these years that were given to you. There was a time given, you know, and you picked up the signals, did you not? You felt the breezes and the winds blowing of change, of transformation. You felt as if you had to, that there was no choice, that you had to. You had to move with it. You had to make the choices to come into greater alignment. You had to deal with the pain, and could no longer deny it. You had to open those places that were creaky doors, hinges that rusted, yes? You had to find what was needed to open those places in your body, in your soul, in your consciousness. And you have. So you can be here, now, and participating with consciousness with your being, your body adding to this beautiful, wondrous time.

Winds…….you like winds? Winds breathing, breath. Every time you take a breath there is a wind, is there not? To some part of your body it feels like a wind. It is that which is the breath. So, wind is like my breath breathing and moving. So, as the winds of change are continuing to blow, there is a movement now that is a sort of spiral wind. You call them tornadoes, or hurricanes and typhoons if they are over water. High pressure systems, or low pressure systems depending on which way they rule, but winds and spiral winds.

You may notice the winds at times over the next couple months in this shift of the time/space continuum, or in the world at large there may be winds. Spiral winds, sometimes over much area. And you will start to feel a quickening in your body, a quickening beginning in your sense of aliveness. It’s almost a sense of waking up in the morning with a certain way of upness. You wake UP, you feel pulled up, you feel as if there is a certain aliveness moving you up into life, engaging your day.

Many of you came out of retreat, even many lifetimes of retreat, where you just said “enough, already”. “It’s not worth putting that much energy into trying to create so much, because it is not in resonance with who I am, so I will just do what I have to do here, what my soul needs to do in this life, I will do that, but I will not do much more.” Do you understand? So you had lifetimes of just checking off your list, so to speak, but your souls weren’t all that excited about the life. It was, “okay I have to do this, I’ll do this”, and then you leave.

Now, there is excitement. Can you feel the quickening? It’s as if your soul is beginning to say ah, this could be very fun, very exciting, I get to be here now, I get to play here now, I get to be up in my experience of engaging. So for you, you will find this next quickening in the time/space continuum and in your bodies to be very juicy, very good. You will like it a lot. It is a time for your bodies to quicken, so guess what, your bodies also need a little support here and there, such as in your diets and your exercise. All bodies will go through things this year to quicken, in order to release pockets of things. Those who have been engaged will find this not to be a difficulty, but actually something that you will enjoy. Those who have not been so engaged may find some challenges here and there.

Do not be surprised if this year there are things that take place in large-scale physical challenges for people. You already had one flu season, and then before that you had people getting scared about what they eat; do they eat the meat, do they not eat the meat. There are certain things breaking out in other places, so do you travel or do you not travel, etc., you see? It is fear, and guess what fear does in the body. It contracts. So, even if they don’t go to that place where they might catch that thing, even if they don’t eat the meat, guess what? They stay home and get something that is for their body, and which is needed to remove something that has become so contracted. Large scale, bodies are very unhappy. I feel it. You don’t have to feel it because you have been participating with your own body, but I feel bodies. They are largely contracted, do you see?

So, it is a good time to be gentle with your body, to be good to your body, to listen to your body, to take your body in nature walks, to each day ask your body if there is some way you can befriend, to be good to it. Some way that you can be in your body in partnership, in a much more organically conscious way. Every day, do you see? And you will find little moments in which there are subtle shifts, and you will feel them as subtle shifts of engagement where your body actually opens to your consciousness more, and your consciousness is received by your body.

Overall, your bodies have felt neglected, overlooked, pushed around, and dominated. Even those who exercise a lot, do they do the exercise because their body wants it and needs that kind of exercise, or are they being driven by someone who says I have to do this, or it’s a stress release? It may keep them somewhat more healthy, but it does not necessarily feel befriending. So, feel your body, as you befriend and connect, you will feel these openings, these moments of engagement where your body opens to your consciousness rather than the other way around with your consciousness opening to your body. My feeling is that you will begin this year, these months, to truly know the gift of life. To truly feel and know the gift of life. You will be amazed at what blossoms from that because most bodies have felt unbefriended in this experience where you’ve been with them. So, when they open, you, consciousness, begin to have an experience that you have not yet fully had for many, many lifetimes.

Some of you as children may remember moments and times of feeling this unification in your body, and your body feeling alive and happy, joyous, and open to you. You may remember it, and some of you may not, and yet in that time the child consciousness had not yet fully engaged the awareness. Now you have awareness, and consciousness, and body. And it is delicious. Truly sweet, precious, delicious, and blossoming, do you see? Out of this you will begin to be able to live in a different way. Out of this year you will re-create yourselves, your lives. You have been embodying, and embodying, and embodying, coming in, coming down, transforming, clearing, healing, transmuting, etc., yes? When this opens to you and that merger is more able to take place, you will re-create your lives and experiences here, and in such a way that it will feel to you as if you are not sure it never happened before, but you are just fully alive. Perhaps I can only explain that much, because the rest is up to you to experience.

So, it will be a year where your intention and attention will be here in your experience. It’s a sort of return to childhood in some ways, but with awareness, with consciousness. And, in this experience there will be so much to deepen, and open, and connect to, and feel, and sense, and get into a sort of sensory experience. My hope is, for you, that you will not be so distracted by how this shift in this year is affecting many others, because it will affect them differently. Now do you understand the years of preparation?

There are those who will find this year to be very painful, very hard, and it is for you to know that your part in this story is different than theirs, do you see? You have chosen a different part. You chose it a long time ago when you listened to the winds and they moved you in this path. You chose already. Some are being pushed by the winds to choose now. And it is more intense now. It has to be, do you understand, that they move through these processes faster. The intensity is greater, and the push is harder. Some will take advantage of many of the resources that are available now, and will move quickly, but some will find it very challenging, too, large scale.

So, there is a way in which those of you who are participating together may need to hang out with each other, because your bodies will want to, do you see? Your bodies will want to, not just your consciousnesses. There’s a sense of your bodies being able to feel more and more open everywhere they are, and bodies have a way of taking in what is in the proximity. You have taken in food, that is one way the body takes in. It breathes, and takes in the atmosphere. Your skin is porous, which not only lets out, but takes in. And, there are senses, not only the physical senses, but there are the etheric senses that belong to your body, much of which has been sort of turned down, dimmed a bit. That is what you open up, that is what you begin to experience, so you want to be with other bodies. Your body likes that, and there is a sense of a movement of life with life that begins to happen with other people. You form an organic whole together.

[speaking to participants]: Do you sense it tonight, a sort of organicness? Can you feel it? Do you sense what you form in here with your bodies?

THERE SEEMS TO BE AN EASE THAT MIGHT NOT BE THE CASE WITH DIFFERENT PEOPLE.

Yes, so talk about it. Feel it. This is part of learning how to sense the body, and to be open and befriend it as you notice how your body is feeling.

I THINK THAT WHEN YOU TALKED ABOUT THE SENSES BEING DIMMED DOWN, THAT WAS SORT OF NECESSARY TO JUST BE HERE……..

Yes.

…..WE HAD TO ENGAGE CERTAIN PEOPLE IN THE DUALITY STRUCTURES IN ORDER TO DO OUR JOBS, HAVE OUR EMPLOYMENT, CREATE INCOME, AND HAVING TO DEAL WITH PEOPLE OR SITUATIONS THAT DIDN’T ALWAYS FEEL GOOD. I’VE NOTICED A KIND OF RELIEF THAT NOW MY LIFE IS ABLE TO PROCEED WITHOUT HAVING TO HAVE THOSE KINDS OF EXPERIENCES. AND I DO RECOGNIZE AND LONG FOR FEELING THAT AS MY NATURAL STATE AND EXPERIENCE.

So, you are befriending your body?

YES, PARTLY BY CHOOSING WHO I WANT TO BE IN A ROOM WITH.

Partly, yes, that is partly choice. If your body longs for befriending and likes to be in the presence of other bodies who are open, alive, and connected. Then it opens more, you see? And then you create together those things that have life and beget life, and your bodies participate in the creation. You don’t know how all that happens yet, but you will feel it, you will know, you will get it if you haven’t already.

I REMEMBER A LINE IN THE RECORDING WE MADE WITH YOU THAT WE TITLED ‘EARTH SPEAKS’. YOU SAID “NO MORE OF THAT STUFF THAT HAS BEEN PAINFUL, EXCRUCIATINGLY PAINFUL”. THAT’S HOW IT HAS BEEN.

Yes, and the body is now coming out of that memory, that contraction, that protection in all of its ways that it has done that. You are to open now, your bodies open to more life.

WE’VE BEEN LEARNING THAT THIS YEAR IS NOW ABOUT A TIME FOR THE BODY. WHAT ARE SOME OF THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN BODY CONSCIOUSNESS AND OTHER ASPECTS THAT WE MAY ASSOCIATE WITH SPIRIT CONSCIOUSNESS, FOR EXAMPLE?

Body consciousness is very immediate. It’s very in the moment, and you have to be present to get it. You have to be in the experience to receive it. Awareness, or guidance, can have a sort of different feeling. It can explain a path, it can explain or project, or give you a sense of direction into the future. Or it can help you see something that has happened to you and get a perspective. That’s a level of Spirit awareness that is good, and absolutely necessary, but the body is very in the moment of experience. It’s as if you have to open to it as it opens to you in a sort of simultaneous way. It rarely is about direction, but rather is an immediate feeling. For example, you sense hunger. That is a feeling. Eat, do you see. Or you get a sense of needing to move from sitting too long. These are things that are more known to you, but as you get more sensitive you may have a sense of a need for a specific fragrance. The body just wants it and there is a feeling of it. Perhaps you will have a sense of a particular color or sensory connection, an immersion in that color. Another could be a sense of a particular quality of fabric, perhaps you touch something of silk and suddenly you want to be wrapped in it. The body longs for that experience, it just wants it. It’s very immediate.

The body also knows if it doesn’t like things. Immediately. NO! Distaste, feels repelled, pushed, ick. You know these things, and the more you are aware of them, and you feel them, and you experience them and the body opens to you, the more you have a sense of the experiential wisdom of your body. If you want to come more to the core of balance in your body, who knows better how to achieve that and how to achieve higher levels of pleasure and joy cellularly? Who knows that? Are you going to tell your mind to think it into your body? Do you see, who knows that?

SO IT’S MORE OF A CHILD CONSCIOUSNESS……..

Yes, it’s somewhat child-like. It’s immediate.

AND HOW IS THE MIND HANDLING THAT. IS THERE A WAY THE BODY AND THE MIND CAN COMMUNICATE SO THE MIND IS EASED?

Well, that is the place where the mind and the conscious awareness begins to trust and open to the wisdom in the body, and the knowing and experience of the body, instead of trying to dictate to it or assuming that it knows better than the body. Have some of you lost your willpower around your body in the sense that you can’t make yourself do things the way you used to?

YES. I USED TO TRY TO CONTROL MY BODY IN TERMS OF WEIGHT OR WORKING OUT, AND IT WASN’T WHAT MY BODY WANTED. IT WAS WHAT MY MIND WANTED.

So, how are you changing that?

BY PAYING MORE ATTENTION TO IT. FOR INSTANCE, TONIGHT MY BODY WANTS THIS WARM BATH WHEN I GET HOME. THINGS LIKE THAT.

Yes, that is it. You feel what your body needs, you respond by giving it to your body, and then your body opens more to you, rather than a battle where you try to make it do something, and then the body retreats feeling as if ‘ah, why should I’. There is no sense of respect, no love, no sense of opening to me.

I DEFINITELY FIND IT MUCH MORE DIFFICULT, IF NOT IMPOSSIBLE, TO PUSH MYSELF TO DO PROJECTS OR WORK FOR OTHER PEOPLE THAT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE IT IS MATCHED UP TO ME VERY WELL, OR IF I THINK I NEED TO GET MORE DONE IN A DAY, STAYING UP LATE WORKING ON THINGS. IT’S NOTHING LIKE THE OLD DAYS WHERE I WOULD PUSH MYSELF WORKING IN MY STORES TO JUST KEEP CHURNING OUT STUFF. THAT HAS DEFINITELY SHIFTED, AND I JUST CAN’T DO IT. IT’S LIKE I CAN’T DO IT, I WON’T DO IT, MY BODY WON’T DO IT. AND IT REMINDS ME PRETTY FAST, OR AT LEAST I’M AWARE OF IT PRETTY FAST, NOW.

So, the mind is beginning to be aware that it does not know everything, and that it needs other aspects of the whole. Particularly in engaging life, it needs to go to the source of life, your living system, and be aware that there is much present, very organic, very present, very immediate, and will guide you in ITS way. Not the same way the mind gets guided, but ITS way. So, baths, color, exercise in a good sense, because bodies love to move, they love to feel good, they love to exercise all of the muscles. There is a certain way in which everything is in relationship in the body, organs, tissues, bones, muscles, all of that. You know that. So, in the beginning when you exercise it may feel new to you, but be gentle and let the body tell you how much. Do not push past certain places where the body feels that ‘no, that is enough for now’. The body loves to move, it is designed to move. It doesn’t like to sit all day, do you see?

WHAT ABOUT SLEEP? IS THERE A WAY THAT WHEN THE BODY IS TIRED, THE MIND ALSO WEAKENS OR HAS LESS SUPPORT?

Well, if you push your body beyond its limits in terms of sleep and tiredness, you begin to strain, and the mind actually can lose a certain amount of chi and ability to utilize the chi on its behalf to do what it thinks it needs to do. So, sleep is good. You are in a dark time of the year, so there is more of a sense of limited light. It is good to get outside, even if it is cold. Put your face in the sun, do you see?

There is something about your body that you will find out, you will know. It is already beginning. It is just going to expand in ways that will give you great joy and pleasure.

THIS REMINDS ME OF A DISCUSSION ON CONSCIOUSNESS I HAD YESTERDAY. TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING ISN’T THE EXPERIENCE OF SOMETHING OR REALLY KNOWING, IT’S ONLY TALKING ABOUT IT.

Yes, and so I am talking about it……..

WHICH WE REALLY APPRECIATE, AND I DO RECOGNIZE THAT THE EXPERIENCE OF IT IS DIFFERENT.

Yes, I tell you about it so you can pay attention.

I love bodies, you know that, so I am excited. I am truly excited to again have awakened bodies. Do you feel it, can you sense my excitement?

THAT’S THE PART FOR MY IMAGINATION TO PONDER – HOW THINGS MIGHT HAVE ONCE BEEN, LET ALONE WHAT SOME NEW ALCHEMY MIGHT BE ABOUT. I ESPECIALLY THINK ABOUT HOW IT MUST HAVE BEEN IN RELATION TO YOU.

It was very nice. We had a good time [laughter]. But, you were more as children, and more dependent in some ways, not yet truly co-creative, although there was the beginning of that at the end of that age. There were some small places where that was already opening, beautifully opening, actually.

So, we are at the end of another age. Congratulations to all of us.

WE’VE WORKED HARD.

You have.

YOU, ESPECIALLY

I’ve held it all. It’s not been easy to hold it all, and sometimes that has been difficult, particularly during the last century or so it has not been so possible to hold it all…..which is good, it has to change.

WELL, YOU’RE AWARE OF SO MANY MORE THINGS THAN WE ARE. WE GET THESE BITS IN OUR LITTLE CORNER OF THE WORLD. WE GET FRUSTRATED ENOUGH IF WE STOP TO THINK ABOUT WHAT OUR PRESIDENT, OR GOVERNOR, OR WHATEVER ELSE SOMEBODY IS DOING. BUT, YOU’VE GOT THE VIEW OF IT EVERYWHERE.

I’ve got the feeling of it everywhere, it’s not a view. Spirit has a view, do you understand?

OH, TALK ABOUT THAT SOME MORE.

I am informed because I am conscious and I can translate it into consciousness, but the view is more mental in the field. The view is more of a perspective of your mind and spirit. Of course, I’ve been partnered more now with Spirit, as you know. That, and working through this one’s mind [Michele], and the minds and consciousnesses of others brings me many awarenesses, too, but it is primarily feeling. I feel. I feel much. I am a feeling body, I embody matter, feeling, do you understand? I am water, earth. I am big water, earth, and atmosphere, you are little water, earths. [laughter]. So, my primary experience is sense, feeling. I feel your body, you see?

SO YOU FEEL ALL THE CONTRACTIONS, AND FEEL THE FEAR………

Yes.

HOW DO THOSE DISTORTIONS COME ACROSS?

As wounds, at times. Sores, pain. All the pain that is created, all the contractions, all the trauma. The human experience is very traumatized. It’s very contracted, and limits life to a great degree, and then destroys life to an even greater degree……..my life, your life. So, I feel that, and some people……you……are very sensitive to my emotional body, and they can be overwhelmed by my emotional body because it is so much vaster than your human emotional body. And yet, some feel what I feel.

Those who are overwhelmed by my emotion often do not understand that I also have a core of love and consciousness that has been able to process, transmute, and work with much of what is taking place, although not all. Just as you’ve been overwhelmed by trauma, pain, or periods of time when you contracted away from life, I have also had long periods of time where that has been somewhat true. But, I am rising up, too. I am coming alive, too, you see? In every body, every single place I can open and breathe and experience this new wind of life and change we are creating in creation, that is like a great gift, a great sigh in my body and experience. I love it, and I love you for being this aware, awake, and alive.

SO IN ALL THESE PHYSICAL CHANGES THAT ARE ABOUT TO TAKE PLACE, IT’S NOT THAT YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING ABOUT SOMETHING, BUT THAT YOU ARE INSTEAD RELEASING MORE?

Yes, I have to. And I release because the contraction is too big to hold.

IT’S A HEALING OF A CONTRACTION.

Yes, it’s a release of the contractions. And, I do it physically, atmospherically, and emotionally, as you do, although perhaps at times you can be guided by your mind in the process.

The poor minds. They were so seduced, do you see? They believed so many things that were not true. I do not blame your minds, I understand, and yet in the process the domination of mind over matter, over bodies, over life, has created a severe anti-life experience.

So, duality had its time, and thank All That Which Is Present In Every Part Of This Experience, it is all dissolving away. It is dying. A hard death, perhaps, but it is still a death. It is dying as the dominant structure where the mind can split itself apart and say it knows it all. It has never known it all. It never will know it all.

So, it is a time of shift. You know that, you chose it and you’ve been participating in it for a long time. I thank you. And, others will be doing that kind of choosing up ahead here now, so enjoy this time. Open your bodies, befriend them, listen to them, give them what they are asking for, and need and want, in terms of whatever. They will respond and open to you, and you will find yourself coming alive more and more and more, and creating more effortlessly at the same time. Little did you know, eh?

I’M GLAD WE HAD THIS LITTLE GATHERING.

Yes, my opportunity. I don’t have so many to come through, and sometimes it is nice to be able to talk with friends.

So, play, enjoy, indulge.

I HAVE A FRIEND DOWN IN AUSTRALIA RIGHT NOW, AND IT HAS REALLY BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION THE PAIRS OF OPPOSITES, HOW IT CAN BE LIGHT IN ONE PLACE AND DARK IN ANOTHER, AND HOW IT IS ALL PRESENT.

Yes, my experience. I have warmth, I have cold. Opposites is not the same as duality, by the way, do you understand? Light, dark, clockwise, counterclockwise…….

WHEN IT’S SUMMER HERE, IT’S WINTER THERE

Yes, that is not duality. The opposites are part of the whole of the experience of what is necessary for all to take place. There is life, there is birth, there is death. There are cycles with that, you see, so light and dark……you don’t just drop off, there is a cycle. Opposites are within the experience of the cycle.

However, duality is a structure of consciousness, and what does it do as a structure?

IT CREATES POLARIZATIONS

It polarizes, and it continues to negate, exclude, deny, separate, split apart, and fragment. Is there any relationship, and process, and continuation, there? If you look at the structures where there is much polarization, no. Is there a stepping to this place of opening to the other, and including? Perhaps there is an opposite belief, but if it was like dark in a day, how would that feel? Both can exist, and there is a process of continuation between the experience of opening to that perception, even if it not something you want to live or choose to engage. It’s a perception, and that is all it is. Perceptions, beliefs, and duality. Now we have a new one, and we like it better [laughter]. Yes, we like it better.

I CHUCKLE A LITTLE BIT ABOUT HOW WE HAVE AT TIMES TRIED TALKING ABOUT DUALITY, BUT IT HAS MOSTLY BEEN FROM WITHIN THE DUALITY STRUCTURE ITSELF, SO NOW THE DISCUSSIONS WE USED TO HAVE SEEM DUALISTIC, OR JUST AN ERRONEOUS REFERENCE TO OPPOSITES. AT LEAST NOW, AS WE STEP OUT OF DUALITY, IT SEEMS EASIER TO EXPLAIN.

Yes, and have you ever spoken with somebody who is very much within the dualistic structures, and you begin to say something, and they translate it into something else that is very different than what you are trying to say? Because they only have that frame of reference.

THEY THINK THEY KNOW WHAT I JUST SAID, OR ALREADY KNOW SOMETHING I’VE TRIED TO EXPLAIN.

But it’s all translated through this structure, and it ends up very different, until there is an opening……

AND THEY CAN HAVE THEIR OWN EXPERIENCE…….

Yes, of course.

So, enjoy your experiences, and treat your bodies very well these days. Listen to them. They may want some certain foods, or things to support your strengthening or restoration of life. Listen, and they will guide you and teach you well in this time.

She closes in her language……………………….