Small Group Sessions April 1998

I HAVE BEEN TOLD FOR THE LAST 2 YEARS THAT MY AURA IS BLACK OR NOT VISIBLE DUE TO A BLACKNESS AROUND ME. SOMEONE TOLD ME BLACK MAGIC IS BEING DONE TO ME. I HAVE BEEN TOLD I HAVE/HAD CANCER AND I FEEL WEAK AND SICKLY. I HAVE DONE MEDITATIONS AND ANGEL WORKSHOPS FOR 2½ YEARS. AM I REALLY UNDER PSYCHIC ATTACK? IS IT RESPONSIBLE FOR MY HEALTH AND WEALTH PROBLEMS? WHAT DO I NEED TO DO? HAS MY TIME COME TO SAY GOODBYE TO EARTH LIFE?

First of all we would say to you that you have been carrying your light within, and have had trauma in earlier times in this life. The trauma shifted your auric field to some degree, partly because there was some damage done to the membrane and partly because you retreated into the place where you have carried your essence.

People who say that your aura is black are not looking at the whole picture, do not listen to them. Psychic attack is only possible when the auric membrane has trauma or damage. To open to healing, work not only with the angels, who are one level of awareness or consciousness that can be supportive, but also open to several other levels to assist you. One is the earth and nature; the earth consciousness, her body, the mother within her, the mother of your own physical nature. Let her assist you. Another level that could be helpful to you is the level of unconditional love or the healing level, which if you wrap yourself in this pink/rose-colored hue which is the level that is of the greatest assistance to those with auric damage, then you can begin to open to the healing within it. Finding true healers, those who are aligned with this unconditional love, would be of assistance to you.

People who are only into reading on the psychic plane can actually do damage to an auric field because they pierce it in order to get into it in order to look at whatever they are looking at for a psychic reading. Do not go to a psychic if that is what they call themselves. Go to one who would be more aligned with the greater unconditional love that could assist you to heal the trauma damage in your field. The angels do carry you. If it is such that your body’s immune system, which is also a reflection of the damage of the outer membrane, is not able to withstand long periods of not being intact, then it will weaken and certain diseases come. But you are not quite to that point. If you can open yourself now to the realization that becoming whole within and without and allowing yourself to heal is within your capacity to do that, and that by asking for assistance to do so it can happen.

WHAT’S THE SIGNIFICANCE OF THE INTENSE WINDS AND TORNADOES THAT HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCED ACROSS PARTS OF THE UNITED STATES THIS SPRING?

If you relate emotion to water, then great storms with water cleanse and purify. They are also de-structive. When the winds are included there is a destruction of structures on the mental plane as well. So it is a sort of blowing through the minds that have been attached, just like rigid buildings are attached to the earth. They are illustrations of mental constructs, naturally so. When the wind blows and destroys those constructs then people are blown apart in their own awareness of who they are, particularly if they were very attached to those creations out of those structures. It is then an opportunity to reconstruct at a very base level of consciousness without the attaching elements and with more deepening of awareness of what is truly valued and valuable, creating something more fluid and less crystallized.

WHEN WE WERE MORE IMMERSED IN DUALITY OR POLARITY AND SEEING THINGS AS EITHER BLACK OR WHITE, ETC., OUR TECHNOLOGY WAS MORE ANALOG IN NATURE, WAVE FORMS AND SUCH. IN MORE RECENT TIMES AS WE RECONFIGURE AND UNIFY IN THE NEW MATRIX I’VE NOTICED THAT OUR TECHNOLOGY IS BECOMING MORE AND MORE DIGITAL, WHICH IS PURELY ON/OFF (OR BLACK/WHITE). SEEMS LIKE A PARADOX TO ME. WHAT’S THE EXPLANATION?

Your technology reflects aspects of consciousness. Aspects of consciousness, not the whole of consciousness. Each dimension has its principles, and each dimension operates in accordance with those principles. Those in dimensions below the ones above may not be able to perceive what those principles are, and ones may not be able to operate according to them even if they may have some knowledge of them. There is, in a sense, a base level of operation based on the fundamentals of the consciousness of that particular entity.

Each dimension is either more specific and opening into greater precision (yes/no, precise) or is expansive, inclusive, and less definitive. So in moving consciousness into a more specific yes/no aspect then on a more generalized scale there is a reflective level of consciousness that is specific. In order to bring mystery or the all-encompassing whole of Creator (womb of creation) into form there are very specific rays of intention, and very specific movement of energy and vibration (tone) that combine to bring that into greater experience and form. When it combines then there is a sense of wholeness or inclusiveness and how it all works together. This all-encompassing hologram of creation formed itself through very specific insertions or structures – choices, very precise choices.

I HAVE A 5 YEAR OLD SON. THERE IS A LOT OF CHANGE GOING ON IN OUR LIVES AND I’M TRYING VERY HARD TO KEEP US GROUNDED AND BEING HONEST ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON. WE HAVE BATTLED A LOT LATELY. WHAT DO I NEED TO FOCUS ON WHEN WE DISAGREE TO GET THROUGH TO HIM SO I UNDERSTAND HIM AND HE UNDERSTANDS ME AND MY AUTHORITY. PERHAPS I HAVE FEARS FROM THE WAY MY CHILDHOOD WENT, BUT I WANT TO BE THE TYPE OF PARENT TO HIM THAT I ALWAYS NEEDED.

If you can bring yourself to a different position of parent and see yourself as a guide and facilitator for his soul that is emerging through his body and his developmental phases of growth. Remember a time in your life when authority was asserted over you. You will find that in opening your inner ears to him in a disagreement there is truth in what he is asking or saying, but he may not be able to articulate it. Listen deeper that just to the words. Allow him to show you or explain to you in ways that are coming from his soul’s essence.

When you hear him the disagreement will fall away for you will find that your agendas may be just that at times, agendas. Not necessarily based in his essence and essential truth or your essence and essential truth. To be the kind of parent that you desired for yourself is to be honored and honoring, acknowledged and acknowledging, trusted and trusting, and listened to and heard as such levels that even if you have not yet mastered all of the language or ways of saying what is going on inside, that there is a way that one is able and willing to be with. Those are the words that you will carry in your heart: how do I be with, in love, to guide and facilitate this soul’s evolution into conscious creation. Put that on your refrigerator or your mirror and ask yourself each morning to be guided in that, and you will find it to be very different.

I AM TOLD THAT IF I AM STILL AND BUT WATCH MY MYRAID OF THOUGHTS WITHOUT ANY INVESTMENT THEY WILL SUBSIDE INTO THE STILLNESS. ONLY THEN HAVE I GIVEN THE HOLY SPIRIT A QUIET RESTING PLACE TO EXTEND HIS LOVING THOUGHTS. I FEEL THE LIGHT VIBRATION IN THE PHYSICAL BODY YET WHAT IS THE POINT OF AWARENESS WHERE WE ARE TOTALLY UNAWARE OF THE BODY? DO YOU BELIEVE IT CAN BE EXPERIENCED BEFORE ASCENSION?

You are asking a question based on a particular matrix of thought or teaching, and we are not, in a sense, followers of that line of thought. Stillness does not mean that you become unaware of the body or that ascension means going beyond the body. Our way of assisting ones that are embodied now is to bring the point or focus of awareness into the whole of creation, which includes life, includes form, includes matter, and includes the body, so that there is a dynamic, holographic experience where you simultaneously are that which is all aware and all alive. As that happens there is a dynamic beyond what has been the teachings of ascendance, the teachings of transcendence, and the teachings of going beyond the limitations or the way the body has been perceived, particularly in the eastern traditions of meditation.

Unify the east and west, unify the masculine and the feminine, unify Spirit and Matter, unify your essence within form, unify your point of awareness within the experience of awareness, unify the Creator within creation, and you will know the dynamic of this age.

I HAVE BEEN RECENTLY TRYING TO CONTACT MY SPIRIT GUIDES. I HAVE BEEN READING BOOKS THAT SAY THE GUIDES WILL TAKE YOU TO A DOOR OF LIGHT AND WHEN YOU DECIDE TO PASS THROUGH THE DOOR YOUR LIFE WILL SOON START TO CHANGE. IS THIS WHAT WILL HAPPEN? I FEEL THAT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING. WILL THE GUIDES ASSIST ME?

Your guides or that level of guidance is always present, and yes it is assisting you even as you speak The way that guides prefer to work is not to be separated and utilized as a teacher or those that you go to for answers, but rather are assisting you to become more confident, more centered in who you truly are and acting, deciding, and moving from that place. They support YOU. You have called them into your presence for this life to unfold your soul’s wisdom.

Your soul’s wisdom is what this is about, not looking outward toward another aspect that you perceive to be more wise than you. Opening your own awareness in any moment is your goal so that you can then be more present, more alive, more aware of what is needed or called forth in that moment, and more and more a vehicle for the great Love of the universe to be present in all sorts of different ways.

Your guides assist you. That is what they do. Who is in charge when someone is assisting another? You are. So rather than trying to get to them, let them assist you. What is it that is in your heart to do? To be? To live? To experience? To feel fulfillment? What is your design and heart’s desire to be in expression in this life? Open those doors and let them assist you to fulfill it, and you will also find that there are guides in body that will also come to assist you, but you will not make the mistake of putting them outside as an authority wiser than yourself.

I’M CONCERNED ABOUT MY HEALTH. I’M HAVING MANY STRANGE SENSATIONS SUCH AS DIZZINESS, DISORIENTATION, FEELING LIKE MY BRAIN IS NOT CONNECTED TO MY EYES OR MY BODY, INSOMNIA AND A BURNT FEELING IN MY NERVOUS SYSTEM. I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH LYME’S DISEASE 6 YEARS AGO. IS THIS THE CAUSE OF MY SYMPTOMS?

The Lymes disease may be contributing, but is secondary. You have a neurological imbalance going on, and it is more on the extreme level. Two things may be helpful for you. One is to allow yourself to use a visualization of floating in a sort of sea green pool to assist the nervous system to rebalance and bring that through the neurological pathways. The second is to use some magnets on your feet or on the extremities of your body and assist yourself to work more consciously with the earth or magnetic field energy. Your magnetic body is not able to be in balance. There is some dissonance there. Some conscious places may also need to be worked with to release some of old trauma pieces that keep the magnetic and the electrical energies from being fully partnered.

There is some resistance in your past to being here in the earth plane, some judgment that keeps you from fully engaging some of what is needed for balance, particularly physical balance. It is largely more complicated than we can address in this short answer. It would be helpful for you to work with someone who has some skills in this area.

4 YEARS AGO I LOST BOTH OF MY BROTHERS EIGHT MONTHS APART. LAST EASTER WEEKEND MY 7 YEAR OLD SON WAS KILLED IN AN ACCIDENT. PLEASE TELL ME WHY HE WAS TAKEN FROM ME WHEN I HAVE LOST SO MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. 11 FAMILY MEMBERS HAVE DIED SINCE 1990. ALSO, MY 11 YEAR OLD SON WAS WITH HIS BROTHER BEFORE HE DIED AND I CAN’T UNDERSTAND WHY THIS HAPPENED.

Whenever someone experiences great loss in the earth plane your essence or soul is partially linked with Spirit through those you have loved and who now live in Spirit and are no longer embodied or in form. Let yourself know that your great loss in the physical of your son, your brothers, and all of your family members is also able to serve you in a way that can open a great bridge of light and love from them to you in the form that you are now yet embodied. Allow that great light and love to flow to you and heal the place where the wound is yet open and very painful, and to evolve for you an open door that continues to serve you and perhaps others as that linkage between the realities.

Your son is not gone from you, he is just on the other side of the bridge. If you can open to that bridge you can travel back and forth. He can meet you in the middle and so can other members of your family, and you can serve others by knowing and being an aware, conscious person in form that knows that life is beyond the form as well. We know that it has been very, very painful, and that is part of your healing, but also know that there is an opening that can be of great goodness.

Your 11 year old son and his brother had an old soul agreement, and there continues to be a linkage between them that is yet present.

I FEEL THAT I HAVE A VERY HIGH PURPOSE IN THIS LIFE. I HAVE FELT AND BEEN TOLD THINGS SUCH AS I WOULD BE WINNING A NOBEL PRIZE OR BE LIKE PRINCESS DIANA. I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT IS EXPECTED OF ME OR WHAT MY DIRECTION IS TO BE. WHAT IS MY PATH TO FOLLOW?

It is not truly a path, it is a deepening of a presence to come through you. Princess Diana had a beautiful form, and yet that which people met in her and through her was a great compassionate presence that was far vaster than her form. She allowed herself to be transparent to that presence so that she was a vehicle. Ones may have attached to her form, but what they connected to was far beyond her form.

Do not identify with your form. Do not identify with a path. Do not identify with a purpose. Rather, become more and more transparent to what wished to be in and through you, and that will then determine your experience of life.

I TOOK YOUR PREVIOUS ADVICE, LISTENED TO MY SURROUNDINGS AND MY INNER SELF, AND THINGS ARE REALLY OPENING UP. I REALLY WANT TO EMBRACE THIS NEW, OPEN EXPRESSION OF MYSELF BUT I FIND MYSELF DEALING WITH ELEMENTS OF GUILT, EAR, AND FLEETING MOMENTS OF DEPRESSION. I REALLY FEEL CREATIVE, LOVING, CONNECTED AND ON TRACK, HOWEVER I STILL CAN’T SEEM TO LET GO OF TENDENCIES TO CONTROL AND MANIPULATE OUTCOMES AND CLING TO SECURITIES. I ALSO HAVE CONCERNS THAT I’M BECOMING TOO HAPPY, POSSIBLY AT THE EXPENSE OF PEOPLE I LOVE AND CARE ABOUT. CAN THERE BE A BALANCE? WILL THERE EVENTUALLY BE CLARITY AND HAPPINESS AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL?

You are doing well. The shadow, veiled aspects of fear, of desire for control, of the old constructs of consciousness are loosening up so that, in a sense, you can see them more clearly and you can choose whether or not you wish to maintain them with your energy and your focus. The more you surrender to unconditional love and acceptance of self and others, the more you expand your ability to stand in any moment with that embrace and that perspective, then the more the old veils will lift. They may try to assert themselves, because that is yet woven in consciousness, but ask your soul directly and those that serve you to assist you to unhook the matrices of consciousness that are limiting, based in separation, fear, and illusion. That will continue to assist you to loosen and lessen those influences.

Know it is not possible to be too happy. You can be more and more and more fulfilled to beyond happiness, to a sense of complete fulfillment and bliss, embodied. Those that are around you may not yet see that that is possible, and they may be clinging to their old patterns of separation and illusion. You are not doing a disservice to them to open greater joy into their presence through you. It will only serve them to unwind and choose whether or not they will do so as well. It is all about choice. The more love there is the more the greatest good will unfold for all. The optimal patterns will be illuminated and the greatest efficiency of achieving each soul’s desire will also be illuminated. Trust this and continue as do.

I HAVE RECENTLY READ INFORMATION REGARDING JESUS AS A FALSE PROPHET AND THAT THE BIBLE STATES THE NAME OF THE FALSE PROPHET AS BARJESUS, INDICATING WE SHOULD BAR JESUS. CAN YOU SHED SOME LIGHT ON THIS?

ALSO, I HAVE BEEN WONDERING ABOUT A COMMENT SOMEONE MADE TO ME ABOUT MARIJUANA BEING THE TREE OF LIFE, THAT IT IS CONSUMED ON OTHER PLANETS AND IS A FORM OF CRYSTAL THAT LOCKS INTO OUR BRAINS TO HELP US IN SOME WAY OR OTHER. CAN YOU CONFIRM OR DENY THIS?

Both are illusions designed to support someone’s belief structures. Jesus is not a false prophet. He is the embodiment of a great being named Sananda. That being’s purpose within the human form was to demonstrate the power of Love within the consciousness, and that it had the potential to transform or change the form of consciousness and the creation that came through consciousness. He demonstrated it, it was mis-understood, and has been crystallized by religions. To interpret it as to bar Jesus is a very limited viewpoint and one that is not based in any enlightenment that we are aware of.

Marijuana is not used on other planets as a crystal that would assist consciousness. Actually it breaks down crystallization, and the assistance that it has given, perhaps, was to begin to break down some of the crystallization of thought patterns that have been more binding in the collective. Yet if used in a long term way it prevents a sense of reconstruction of consciousness, for the consciousness has no way to make the linkages through the neurological patterning into the body because the synapses have so much of a sort of oil placed upon them. You cannot be alert and bring the high frequencies through your neurological pattern into demonstration. It may assist a certain breaking down of consciousness. That’s why pain is helped, because pain is an etheric body experience and if the neurological pathways are dulled or deadened between consciousness or thoughts and the manifestation of thoughts in the body, then there is less pain, less intensity.

Whoever you are getting your information through, those ones are not tapping into what we would consider high frequency information. It is twisted and manipulated to support thought forms that they wish to justify.