Hi to Everyone on the Lightsmith Community List,
Within the last few weeks I have found myself re-visiting, and in some cases re-energizing, things that I thought had permanently slipped into my past. The most stellar example is a return to my roots of photography and image making. I started out months ago sifting through and scanning mounds of old negatives and slides, discovering photographs I barely remembered making and family shots I didn’t remember at all. What affected me the most, though, was when I began to work with my old large-format panoramic negatives. The images are so unique, and the quality available from such a large piece of film is so excellent that something came alive in my core when I began to digitally process the photos.
Within a day I went from seldom thinking about my photographic past to feeling a deep loss over having sold my 3 specialty panoramic cameras many years ago. The longing persisted, and with little hesitation I made a visit to ebay and purchased the same model camera I shot with up until the early 90′s. In the same way I made a reconnection to vinyl records and tube amplification, I wanted to once again shoot with real film. My training and background as a photofinisher was about the darkroom process, and what’s fun for me now is to shoot on film but have a digital darkroom that allows me to make images I never could by traditional means.
So, long story short, I feel like I had set aside a substantial part of myself to enter into a process of transformation where my focus and energy was needed elsewhere almost full time. Hard to believe I DON’T have to do that same level of work anymore, but that seems to finally be so. The Earth Mother and other beings have talked about how many of us who have been doing this work can now relax and open to fulfillment, and certainly that includes enjoying activities that are so personally connected to heart and soul.
I am very curious to know if any of you have had a similar experience, maybe with jobs, relationships, music, hobbies, or anything else. Please leave a comment or two (if you’re reading this in email just click the Full Circle title to see the main post and comment section). Note the box you can check if you’d like to receive notification when others comment.
PS – With piano and drums as part of my history I’m wondering if musical performance will be making a comeback. Stay tuned :)